Depressed for no particular reason.

I find that sun helps me...and going somewhere nice alone..to think about nothing

I like to drive in the bush alone and look for animals

 

I was celebrating a new record a couple of days ago: for the first time since puberty (I'm 25 now, that ended at age 16.) I went a month without depression. I even survived PMS with only mild aggression that I saw coming and walked away from. I started doing Yoga seven weeks ago, closely followed by a heavy fruit-and-veggie diet and in the last week a bit of aerobic exercise.

A couple of days ago I screwed my wrist in Yoga so badly that I couldn't go to class and couldn't practice at home. Because of some scheduling mishaps, I had to eat quite a bit of junk in the past couple of days as well. Guess what? My winning streak is over, and I'm fighting off the first edges of one of my little spells. But I noticed tonight that this is all that had changed. I think my lack of exercise and diet ickiness sent me back into my depression.

I'm genetically inclined and recovering from screwy upbringing, which is the original cause of my illness, but I think I may just have found something to fight this with. Fuck, if all I have to do is eat a few more carrots and flax seeds to make it, I'll be fine.