You folks on hip forums are the only ones that know of this. My psychiatrist does not even know of this and I dare not tell my friends or family what has been going on. They have no need to suffer from my issues. never again.
I hate to say that sometimes, that happens. I've felt like the only time people take anything in my life seriously is if I do something seriously stupid to my body. And then they all freak out like, "what happened"?
I agree. It's not worth it. Unfortunately I relapsed yesterday after an entire year. But it's not worth it, man. You'll be okay. Know that there are people here for you,
I don't know if you care to expand upon it, but when did you start cutting, and what made you do it? I've always wondered. I suppose there are many other self-destructive impulses, ways to harm yourself, but most of them don't directly cause pain.
Yes, I'm okay, as of this moment. The problem is that the negative energy that drives me to be self destructive is coming from a person that I don't have a choice but to be around. And adding to that is the absence of the one person who gave me positive energy.
The first time for me was an accident, I never intended to harm myself, but I found it worked to alleviate my depression and it escalated from that.
