Convo it up

@stella- i know i need some serious huggage. but my friend in alabama cheered me up when she called me maybe an hour ago and we only talked for like 15 minutes but lol shes was like i'm soo high and she was saying all this stupid random shit which i usually find VERY annoying but for some reason it cheered me up and we were like roaring with laughter. i know mine was legit but idk about hers maybe it was just the weed

@max- i fuckin know. mike said it was "blueberry", which i highly doubt cuz the weed around here is shitty but it did smell a little fruity but was absolutely amazing smelling. it was pretty dank and my tolerance is so low two hits probably would have done me in and you'd figure since i've probably spent 100 bucks in weed for jane but hey i guess you can't get just from givin and since i didn't spend any money on this weed i didn't feel it was my place to ask. but i know i would have felt paranoid smoking with one person while there was a third person sitting behind me awkwardly staring at me while me and my other pal were smoking.

 

i'm gonna try something new and just sit back for a while and let life be.. just stick with family, my girlfriend, and a couple close friends.. i'm realizing that the more you put yourself out there, and the more generous you are, the shittier things get.. i think i might quit smoking weed too.. for the first time in years, i didnt feel like smoking today,...

life is weird

 

well on a lighter note, i think i have a thing for nerds.

 

Letting life be is well and good, but being kind and generous doesn't equate to things being shitty. There is a great difference between being compassionate and strong and letting people walk all over you/ take advantage of you. One of my favorite quotes is:
To be kind does not mean to be passive.
To be compassionate does not mean to allow others to walk all over you, to allow yourself to be destroyed. - Thich Nhat Hahn
But I know how you feel, putting yourself out there just to get trampled, it's an awful feeling for sure.

 

its an even more awful feeling when you can't help it

 

generous wasnt the right word, but i know what you mean.

 

You can't help how people treat you, but you can help who you surround yourself with and how you react to other people

 

wisdom

 

i think photoshop is my new love.

i can't exactly do it very good cuz its hard to crop and select because my hands shake so my lines are off but its still very ..like idk relaxing for me

 

girls pull my ears..

Thank you.

 

meeeh. it's really going to be like, my last choice. my first choice would be WVU, second rutgers, and third wilkes, as of now. but i reeeeeally want to go to WVU. it's like, nestled in the mountains, traditional college town, nice and big, 5 hours from home (perfect amount of time), and not very diverse. it's exactly what i'm looking for, being that it's almost the complete opposite of what i'm living in now. plus ma pops went there so i think i get some sort of discount? maybe? and i know they offer automatic academic scholarships depending on your SAT score.

@taylor- my heart goes out to you. i HATE dealing with friend issues. i went through a lot of shit like that last year and the only advice i have is don't put up with it. just completely cut off all communications and ignore them, it's the only way. people NEVER change, especially if the change isn't initiated by said person. i don't have very many friends right now either, my "best" just moved away because she allegedily "hates everyone here" and is "so miserable" and i'm thinking to myself wow was i really that bad of a friend? now i have like, 3 left as well. PA definitely sucks !

 

AUGH I'M SO PISSED! my friend and my other sort-of-friend did H without meeee . the sort of friend came home from college and since she's neighbors with my real friend they just did it. i'm not really that mad though, there'll be more times.

 

don't get hooked on that shit.

i've seen baaaaad things

on a side note, i'm hungry but i'm a little scared to eat since i had spaghettos for dinner and they made me feel sick.

 

hellz naw. that's really the last thing i'm concerned about. i mean, putting things into perspective, i've done its big bad cousins with no problem, and oxys as well.

 

trust me you dont wanna go to rutgers lol... campus is nice, but its surrounded by shit... wvu is nice though, but i'm stayin close to home... Montclair state

 

wvu is my ultimate goal. it goes a little something like this

1. score well on ACT
2. get accepted into WVU pharmacy program
3. ???
4. profit



i've never heard of montclair. where is it located?

 

i didnt even take ACT, just sats.. ACT is more of a west of the mississippi thing.. plus it has science

its in montclair, nj... north jersey about an hour from where i live... its supposed to be on of the best state schools

 

damn, I might get baked a third time tonight, each time not on my pot, thats kinda a nice change for once.

 

WVU accepts ACTs (as do most other schools), and from what i hear they're a lot easier. if i do really well on them, fuck taking the SATs. only gotta go through the bullshit once. the science questions are real easy, btw (well, from the sample problems in my book they are). i feel like i have a better chance of doing well on the ACT than SAT, as my vocab sucks and that's a huge part of SATs.

 

fuck the SAT. The act is quickly becoming the standard test save for english programs.