So I have been off and on with my SO for 15 years. We used to have great face numbing, collapse out of breathe monkey sex all the time until the last year or so. I realize this can sometimes happen in the middle of a long relationship but recently I have just been thinking, why not bring someone else in, she can have a guy and I can have a girl and we can stay together? I even talked with her openly about it and she shot it down right away and claims she is happy with the sex but I don't see how that is possible. When I think back to how we used to do it and what it is like lately, it is boring by comparison. The problem is that I am not interested in cheating and I don't want to nag her to death to get her to agree to it. I feel stuck, I wanna explore a new women so bad and I'm willing to let her be with a guy too. I do love her and I never thought I could share her with anyone until recently. I am just more open to the idea. I even had a dream last night that she agreed and banged some dude in our house and he left and then in my dream it seemed like a few days passed and a hot brunette visited and was waiting naked in the bedroom for me, I talked to my girl before following this other girl and made sure she was okay and she told me to go for it and have fun and I was so excited as I went in and shut the door and proceeded to get to know every inch of the sexy brunette I was imaging. I woke up with a raging boner and my heart pounding and then reality set in and I felt kinda lousy about being so fascinated by this idea. Really not sure where to go from here.