Cheated On My Gf And Fear I'm Turning Gay

In my last relationship I had second thoughts about my sexuality and it eventually led to me getting rimmed and Loving it, which led to me eventually watching gay porn.
I love straight Porn but now every time I watch it I imagine that I'm in the girls place and I'm the one sucking and getting smashed.
These thoughts eventually consumed me and in my new relationship I recently hooked up with a guy from CL and I bottomed and now taking cock is all I think about...
I fantasize sucking cock all day and I just wanna have sex again but I don't wanna be in a relationship with a guy...

 

i wonder what percentage of confessions in the "true confessions" forum are actually true.

 

I wouldn't have posted it if it were false

 

it's like penthouse forum but boring, thanks for confession, next

btw, go suck a dick and see if it works for you - and tell your girlfriend or you'll be a basic republican 'alt'


btw don't argue truth with a girl in her underwear with 38,000 posts

 

Why fear it?

 

I thought i was gay at one point but realized i couldn't see myself staying with a guy especially since i liked women too much. I considered trying a gay relationship but it was too complicated.

 

Because that would be gay?


You will come to eventually realise two things


1, How "gay" you end up being is just a function where the variables are how old you were when you started, how much positive reinforcement there is, and just basic bodily functions you have no control over

That is, you were always destined to end up bi at 50 and more on the gay side simply because you had a few more nerve endings in certain areas than average

2. What " but I don't wanna be in a relationship with a guy..." actually gives away about your real view of women ( and gives away to woman) .....i.e I dont want to cuddle and hold hands with a guy, or watch Twilight movies and talk about our feelings because I'm not a stupid girl

 

To a degree you are right vanilla but at the time my options with females were few and too much hassle. The guys were closeted or particular about public stuff. The one gay guy i was with was tempting but he was very promiscuous.

In a way, the guy i did most of my stuff with growing up was my bf as we hung out everyday and had sex almost daily. But once he got his the mood changed and really messes with your head to hang out for hours, have sex for a few minutes then part ways.

 

LOLz, one of the ones where as soon as he cums hes out the door, oh I'm not a f*g

But only ever AFTER they cum

 

Went on for years some how. Really wish i did most of that stuff with someone less of a dick. He lived close versus another guy i was messing around with growing up but the other guy was cool about our encounters though it never went far

 

Even got to the point that he rather finish himself thinking that is less gay lol

 

To go with the theme of this post, i continued to see men and women on the side of my relationships searching for something that was missing. Felt guilty more having sex with girls because guys offer other things girls cant

 

You might benefit from a woman's point of view..

I've a few gay friends, I've a lesbian daughter, and I've seen a marriage and someone destroyed, because her husband was gay, no one guessed! But he hid behind a pretty wife!

My gay friends are a couple, been out since day dot, easy, one. his mom and family knew without being told, he has 4 older brothers, all love him..he is happy and a great guy!
My daughter, wasn't so easy for her, her dad still shuns her, and breaks her heart, I won't say why, as it makes me want to rip him apart! Stupid since I know his likes and dislikes! But she is happy being out, her partner is awesome..
But my cousin had her world ripped apart, coming home to her lovely husband and finding him in their bed with a guy! He was ashamed!!! Bless him!
He couldn't bare to be with her, but couldn't live without her!
He admitted he used a condom, but it didn't help! He took so much time wasting both their lives, she would never trust another man, understandable!
Regardless of what people say, you have to be open, you have to be who you are..other people will judge you, of course they will..
But you know what? The way you were treated has long gone, it's ok to be out about your sexuality now..don't hide, be the best you can be, for you!
Life is far too short for everyone..no one gets extra time..
There is no shame in being gay! Leave the girl..break her heart now! Don't lie to yourself..so long as your happy in your life. Is what matters.
Be proud you know who you are..

Am I rambling!? Lol

 

What A Beautiful Post........Well Done Young Lady......



Cheers Glen.

 

So, you're more afraid of being Gay than you are of being a liar and a cheat; living a life of dishonesty, devoid of integrity and honor?

You might want to reassess your priorities there, mate.