Cheated On Bf. Need Advice.

The reality of what hurts the most: I'm a whore. A dumb whore. I allowed someone to manipulate me during a vulnerable & fragile time. Mostly, I was just lonely & constantly sad & angry. Somehow, I thought someone on the other end actually cared for my well being & wanted to see me happy & succeed, but the truth was that he simply wanted to spread my legs & fuck me. So I guess my boyfriend is right; I am just a useless person only wanted for a "fuck hole". Guess it really is true; a shoulder to cry on becomes a dick to ride on. Clearly the other man didn't respect me if he was willing to let me cheat on my boyfriend. Even though, at the time, I felt I had a dead relationship, I still lived with another man whom I was with for 5+ years.
In case you haven't figured it out, I cheated on my boyfriend of 5 1/2 years. We started become distant even though we live together. He worked ALL the time while I had the comfort & luxury of staying home to focus on school.
Anyway.. Since I hoped on a airplane & took off for two days to have an affair my boyfriend has had a high sexual libedo. He thinks I should be having sex with him the second he walks through the door & especially whenever he desires it. If I decline his advances he throws in my face that I flew over 1000+ miles to ride someone else's d*ck. Which ultimately is the reason I pull my pants down or open my mouth to let him have his way. My question & advice I'm seeking is should I be pleasing him EVERYTIME he desires sexual favors? He thinks I should because I cheated. And don't give me that "you don't belong in a relationship crap", "there is no trust", etc. I know. I'm currently trying to repair what has been broken & he thinks that if I sexually please him more often it will fix the damage, eventually. I says he needs to know I desire him & not other cocks.
I know I am a miserable, vile, cum bucket whore, but his way of trying to repair the relationship consists of cooking, cleaning, being fucked and to keep my mouth, shut, unless his c*ck is in it! Literally. And for actual punishment "since there are consequences to your actions", he says, I "NEED" to let him penetrate my ass daily, even if it's not with his cock. He knows anal is painful for me and that I truly despise doing it. Anal training will make me know there are consequences to hurting other people. Once I agree to his terms he no longer wants me having unsupervised internet access since that is how I met the man I had an affair with. He doesn't want me to be unsupervised at all, but obviously it's not ideal since he has to work. He mentioned putting a security system in the house, but shortly after changed his mind when he formed the idea that he'll just "plug my holes" while he's gone. He envisions having sex with me, cumming inside of my ass then plugging it. That way when he gets home and takes the plug out the cum will drop out indicating the plug has remained in my ass. Therefore, it guarantees I didn't cheat while he was away. He also mentioned trying to make some sort of chastity belt that would allow a dildo in my pussy since he wasn't able to find anything related to that to purchase. But the issue of having to urinate arose and he realized that idea may not be successful. Basically, he said until he can trust me again I'll have no purpose, other than to be his cum receptacle. I love him and know I messed up. I'm seeking men's opinions because I need to know if I agree to the terms is there a chance it can repair what I have broken? I'm sure it all sounds horrible, but I'd (probably) let him do anything that would please him at this point. Even if it means taking his anger out on my body.
This is a REAL story. Not fabricated at all. Please, I need advice.

 

Just get pregnant so he gets stuck with you anyway

 

I agree about the internet access...you shouldn't have any

 

Just brake it off, it's gone to shit already.

 

Everyone makes mistakes. IF--I repeat IF--you had a decent relationship before your "mistake"-(which I seriously doubt--all that shit he comes up with is nuts,IMO) , it's obvious
you'll never be in a good relationship with that person. Get out of there as soon as you can and chalk it up to the experiences that life has to teach us. It does no good to call yourself those names that I'm sure came from him. GET OUT--WORK ON YOUR OWN LIFE and then get back in with others as soon as you feel you deserve better than what you are getting. What you have had -----is gone.

NOW----I've responded in fact believing what you have said here. If you and your story are real --then i hope you fare well. However--if this is a troll post--you can basically fuck yourself. That's the way it goes around here.

 

So do you ever see you two having a normal relationship ever again?

You did wrong, you went all out to sleep with that guy, but you know what, he isn't your trainer, be strong, assure him you love him, your sorry, and you won't do it again..but don't allow this abuse to carry on any longer, he has no right to treat you like this!
You know what you have to do, how can he love you and abuse you like that?
Don't allow it, its not human!

 

I couldn't read all of this. He is not respecting you. He doesn't love you. He is purposely degrading you and you are letting him.

No one deserves that. If my bf would purposely anal train me knowing I didn't like it and with objects. Hell no. He does anal because he knows I like it.

Until you decide you are worth it, it won't matter what advice you get. Put on your big girl panties...get out of that relationship.

 

That's right. Abuse encompasses more than physical mistreatment. You've (op) put yourself in an untenable position. I'll have to disagree about apologizing to him.
That hasn't worked and won't. He has you right where he wants you--feeling low down and under his foot. And he loves it, obviously.

 

Wow. Hon, I think you need to focus on gaining some self esteem. Do you have access to counseling? Putting yourself down is not productive, and I firmly believe that, until you can love yourself unconditionally, you aren't ready to be in a committed relationship.

Don't be so hard on yourself, for one, and for two, get some counseling and start building up your self esteem and self confidence.

 

Leave him and get counselling for self esteem issues like ash said. Yes you did something wrong but his form of punishment is basically sexual abuse, which for some weird reason you think you deserve. It doesn't matter what you did, you don't deserve to be treated that way.

 

My ex cheated on me too. When i found this out I also cheated on him at a time when I knew he would walk in and catch me in the act. Then I left him.

 

Shit what stat do u live in if u do that for him I'd love for u to do it to me u just got me so hard thinking about all that girl I would fuck ur brains out fill u with my seed plug u up an go back to work LIKE A BOSS!

 

I HATE women like you. HATE THEM. I've been cheated on twice. I no longer trust women. At all. Low life scumbags IMHO.

 

I did not read all of that, but I honestly think that if you cheated that really sucks, therefore you should be honest about it and break up. Tell him it's because you met somebody else.

 

cool story bro..

 

Yes, you should.

Lasagna would be a good idea. If he's trying to eat healthy, I'm sure that a grilled chicken ceasar salad would surely please him too.

 

good news ladies, this guy's available!

 

He probably always will be...

 

this is a fetish thread. OP is 90% a male.