Chatablanca ..

There was one moment during the show
I was emotional.....almost cried.....I'm such a sap

Induct those inductees .....:scholar:

The performances n speeches were awesome:2thumbsup:

 

my cousin is allergic to peanuts. he was on a plane and nearly died, because EVERYONE opened their little packets at once. he also had a bully at school smash the peanut butter half of someone's sandwich into his face, which is not bullying, so much as it is attempted murder.

i do not like feeling all the feels. i told a friend of mine that i love my hubby right to death, but death would be preferable right now. im okay for a day, and then i feel completely not the next.

 

Does a allergy to peanuts ever lessen the older you get or the more exposed to peanuts you are ? And I wonder if you are allergic to peanuts if its just the peanut or all nuts?

 

there have been some efforts to lessen the severity of a peanut allergy with, well, with what is essentially a homeopathic remedy. my cousin has had some on-purpose, small exposures, to try and reduce his reactions. if i remember correctly, it has helped, but he is still definitely allergic.
some people are allergic to just peanuts, some are allergic to other kind of nuts. when you read packaging you will see "made on equipment that also handles tree nuts/ peanuts"

m&ms are off limits for him, there is peanut in the shell, whether its an oil or whatever, who knows, but its in there. peanut hides in everything.

 

Beautiful picture MLove ....:daisy:

 

thanks. i made those overalls, fake fur camo, if i can find them ill model them for you guys.

hubby has managed to make me feel so un-confident, so un-pretty. and hes the only one who makes me feel pretty anyway. i found a video on my computer of him hanging out with his affair partner, i could hear his voice on the video, watching her drunk tattoo someone. from before they hooked up. he uploaded it to our computer just after they hooked up. but no, they didnt really hang out, he doesnt think she was throwing herself at him... i dont understand how he can keep feeding me partial truths if he wants this to work. "accidentally" erases text messages. um, no. i need to see everything you say to everyone, i need to be able to refer back to it.

im so lost. i love you guys

 

MLove you are beautiful inside and out ,
your husband is very lucky to have someone as understanding and caring as you are
you are a excellent homemaker ... mother...and wife
You are a rare gem in today's world
Always feel beautiful because you are :grouphug:

 

And MLove you are his past present and future
And the only one able to say that
She can't say that......don't torture yourself
Erase that video and any trace of her

 

i cant until i know all of the truth. i will, i look forward to erasing her, but i cant yet. and if he wont tell me the whole truth, i have to get it from her. he answers my questions, but i dont know everything that i should ask.
i have to know what i have to forgive him for.

thank you dear. i hope to feel better, but my wounds are still gaping.
you know, you guys might actually know me better than he does. can i marry the SL?

 

You do deserve the truth and the healing process does take time..
.you will come through this ... :grouphug:

 

when i eat peanuts i always eat the nib first...its the best part

i think they call it the germ

 

yep..its a germ


yumm

 

i hope so. we need to talk to people about it, whether a counselor, or our friends. but he doesnt want to confess to our friends until after a june 28th wedding. he is worried it will cast a pall. well its his fucking pall. and he cant lose all his friends, because they will have to support my choice, or they will have to cast me out for being stupid enough to stay with a cheat. we have to tell them, but its his timeline, because its his shame.

i never thought id have to go through this. my HS boyfriend before him cheated on me too. after 2 years (and losing my virginity) i dumped him for his cheating. hubby has ripped 10 years out of my soul. he doesnt get it yet. im missing.

im glad im not allergic to peanuts. i want to grow them, because you cant find raw peanuts here, and you need them raw if you are going to make one of my favoritest treats- boiled peanuts. ::drool::

 

super glue his dick hole..

 

its a thought, but id still like to have more kids, we make pretty babies. of course, weve been putting it off for money reasons, and stay stocked on rubbers, but he didnt always use one with her. thank goodness my labs came back negative, and she didnt get knocked up.

i hate being this person. i hate feeling bad for loving this man, who cut me so deeply. i hate feeling vindictive, and wanting to make him hurt. i hate. i hate. i hate. i have elected only to believe in love, i have made of myself a vessel, where the self is not. i am a vessel of love, and i am. full. of. hate. i am blackness. and i am tainted.

 

:smash:whack his pee pee !




^^^^said this for shits n giggles :love:

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_CL6n0FJZpk"]Dr. Dre - Still D.R.E. ft. Snoop Dogg - YouTube
STILL got a migraine the last couple days, I had to take opena last night, maybe take the other half today idk..

 

When I went out this morning I noticed that my Iris had bloomed, looks a lot different than Orison's. I was going to take a photo when I got back from breakfast and post it. By time I got back home it had wilted and was laying on the ground from the localized drought I'm having... Very pretty dead thing now.

 

irises come in an impressive array of colors. i like the deep purple ones, and my mom has some that are like a reduced red wine, deep deep red, nearly black. its a very stirring shade.

 

So the Red Tent thing went pretty well.

I was nervous as fuck at first. I haven't had much luck fitting in with groups of women.
But it turned out ok. Friendly bunch. There was a little bit of flakey stuff but I got through it without so much as an eye roll!!

It was also the first time I've ever come out to anyone beyond my best friends as gender queer. So that was pretty cool.

Some of us did a bit of drumming while we all walked a labyrinth. It's kinda funny drumming with non-drummers but we made it work.

Strawberries and Chocolate.

Good times.