First, a quick background. Been married for many many years and my wife has become my best friend, but the lover part has dwindled off. To keep myself from dwindling, I subscribe to Ashley and other questionable dating websites more as a moral booster. Ya, I know they are all fake, but it does something for the ego, as well as other parts. So I get this message through Ashley M from a cute lady about my age looking to only converse. OK, I can do that - no harm there. Being a geek I was able to find her on the net and fell in love (or maybe lust) with her postings on a social site. Not a sex freak, just a down to earth sweet lady with a killer smile that I got a real positive vibe about. So I return to AM and her profile was deleted. Second thoughts? Afraid her husband might find out? I actually felt crushed. Never been bothered by any of this before - it was always fantasy to me. This time I felt a little pain. This bothers me more for the feelings I have - not so much her dropping out. Maybe I'm an old fool or a romantic - but I would have loved to trade words with her on whatever level she felt comfortable with. I could reach out to her on other mediums, but I don't want her to think I'm stalking her. I suppose AM might have sent that for her and she didn't know about the message to me? Then, maybe she did? Sorry for the yammering, but I thought it might make for interesting discussion if anyone else had similar experiences they'd be willing to share. Thanks!
