Can you live with yourself?

it really depends on what my emotions are like as to what my last thoughts before sleep are
i've cried myself to sleep many many times and i've also gotten really giddy and manic before bed

a lot of the time i pass out after a night of drinking so i don't have to think about anything

i'm comfortable with who i am and confident in who i'm becoming
i don't mind being alone but i also don't think humans are meant to be alone
the thing is i'm not going to go be with someone just out of 'loneliness' or a fear of being alone