Can I quit masturbation for good?

Magnet - every hour, each of your testicles produces 10 million sperm; after 15 days without masturbating or intercourse or a wet dream, you have over 300 million of the little guys swimming around in there, wanting to get out.

Don't torture yourself. If you can't get laid soon, just bite the bullet and relieve yourself of this burden you have created for yourself. Every healthy guy should have a sperm ejaculation every five days or so, whether by intercourse or masturbation. (Wet dreams don't usually happen after your early teenage years.) It is said that unejaculated sperm will be absorbed back into the body after a period of sexual inactivity, but I am not sure this is the case. Just get it over with.

 

not much happened 2dayy... i didnt sleep well last night cause of pain. the girl who i mentioned earlier who was sitting on my lap etc came by and we hung out 4 a bit and we kissed a little bit but didn't go any farther.

having only 1 arm is frustrating just doin my laundry is a pain in the ass... or putting on socks. i want a nurse...

im telling u when u dont masturbate u have a much wider range of emotion than normal. i mean u have the capability of experiencing emotions much more strongly. Normally im pretty hesitant while going in for a first kiss but with all this testosterone... i just go for it and it feels good to be able to feel strongly enough to do things like this without second thoughts.

This almost feels like a cleansing process... like im reconnecting with my manliness after it being dormant for a long time.

I'm going to try to take the time to type better cause I hate reading stuff that's typed up like shit.

I have no idea what freud would say about this. Was that a joke cause I don't get it.

Cutted - no way I'm sticking this out, my sperm will have to deal with the overcrowding until a woman lets them out.

It's been 17 days and I'm going strong, by sunday I'll have beaten my old record of 20 days which i set a couple of years ago.

 

Magnet - what you got is a major case of "blue balls". I can go five days at most, when my girlfriend is not in town, and by the fifth day I am crawling the walls.

 

Good on ya, Magnet. You're an inspiration. Today I will be productive.

 

I forgot to post yesterday. My dad and I drove into San Francisco to get some work done on an old car we have. It's pretty much road worthy now after years of work and after all that work I just want to get rid of it but maybe I'll keep it around for about a month.

Pain has kept my mind off sex for the most part. My knee is the worst, everytime I move it, the cuts get reopened. Also there's no way to masturbate with my right hand and if you can't do it with your right why even do it?

I'm really going to try hard to play it safer for now on, being injured is such a waste of time.

EVERYONE is telling me not to get a motorcycle. They all start by saying "I'm not going to give you the lecture..." then they give me the lecture. "It's not you, it's everyone else... someone is going to do something stupid and cut you off and BAM you're dead. Everyone who has a motorcycle knows someone else whose died on a motorcycle."

I think about it for a second and then realize that I'm different and invincible and that the movie of the universe in which I'm the main character can't afford to kill me off.

No, some of what they say comes through. I don't want to be paralysed or permanently injured or killed before my prime. But this is a conflict. Am I supposed to live my life as safely as possible? Am I to avoid pain and suffering at all cost? AM I TO SACRIFICE in the name of security?

Everyone has dreamt of living a more exciting life. I'm sure some people right now are old and close to dying having never done anything exciting.

When I make decisions like this I feel I'm choosing between two entirely different lifestyles.

On one side I'll live a long, safe, comfortable life full of daydreams about how things could have been different and on the other, a life where every dream comes true but at the expense of dying well before any grandkids are born.

 

Here we go, beating tomorrow will mean beating my all time record since i started masturbating.

Not much to write about today. I just want to heal up already... I'm really inpatient about this. I think I'm going to spend some serious time studying things I'm interested in so this time isn't wasted.

It's a shame I can't work out, I had my body in pretty good shape and now I'm losing it a bit.

Fucking horny as hell.

 

Magnet - don't you worry - when you reach 30 your mind will clear, and you will realize that motorcycles are deathtraps, that your penis needs regular attention and that it is best to get it from a girlfriend or wife, or in desperation, from your hand. You will discover that women are normal people, and have a lot to offer as other than just cunts.

 

Fuck yeah for beating my record!

The next milestone is 31 days or one month.


I'm thinking about getting a shitty job and renting an apartment. I'm not leaving for college til late september. I gotta find something to fill my time. Ever since that accident, I've been kinda just floating along through the days and it's pissing me off. It's just not my style. I want some structure.

im feeling horny, aggrivated, and aggressive as usual... im goin to bed

 

I'm depressed. I'm fighting so hard to hold things together but I just feel bad.

It's been 21 days since I last had an orgasm. I barely remember what it feels like.

But that's not what is really bugging me. Ever since I crashed that bike, I'm not exercising, my diet has kinda deteriated, my days are kinda random and unstructured. Most of all I feel lonely. I went out tonight and talked to a few strangers and chickened out in talking to some girls cause they were all in packs and I was by myself but that's just an excuse.

I've been getting by too long with too few friends. I've always had something to comfort me whenever I've felt lonely... A long time ago it was video games and television, then it was porn and masturbating and occasionally a girlfriend, now I just have a void.

I gotta reach out and start making some friends. Even introverts need people to talk to.


I'm sure I'll feel fine when i can start riding again but for now I really gotta get on top of things.

I gotta start eating better, maybe get on the treadmill a bit, I did situps today and that felt good.

 

I'm feeling a lot better today.

I hit the treadmill. I ate healthy... most importantly I talked to my Kung Fu instructor and he made me feel a lot better.

This no masturbation thing is a tough experiment. You start to want every girl who has a nice ass and you forget about how you use to have preferences that didn't revolve around sex.

I've been completely captivated a few times as girls have walked by.

anyways blah blah same old stuff. horny blah, angry blah, its a challenge to come up with something to write about every night but this journal has been a huge help. I feel like I'm accountable to it. Like if I give in, I'm not just letting myself down, I'm letting down anybody whose ever read this.

 

yep youll let me down
god job so far
not sure if i could ever do it

but its good to see how your life has changed without it
hopefully you can find a good place once you start masterbating again

 

God knows why.

 

Hey man, I really hope you find yourself a nice big group of friends soon.

More importantly I hope you get yourself some nice Boo-tay soon! I got faith in you bro, your a good looking guy, get it done son.. get it done.

 

Here's the deal.

I wasn't counting on my testosterone or whatever getting me this riled up. I went to a salsa class tonight and my focus was shit. I basically learned nothing because the person in front of me had tits. I felt terrible. I was consumed by this desire to be intimate and yet that was totally inappropriate so I just sort of went through the motions not learning anything and I looked and felt like a jackass.

The downsides to this experiment are starting to outweigh the benefits.

Not masturbating makes you bolder, you do things you wouldn't normally do. You definitely have a stronger desire to seek out women. You have more energy... more than you know what to do with really.

However, it also creates a massive lack of focus. I would go so far as to blame my accident on this experiment. The reason I fell in the ditch was for no other reason than the fact that I lost focus while a car was passing. I also have found it impossible to care about things I once cared about. My goals outside picking up women are practically meaningless to me now. All I care about is sex and intimacy.

all i want to do is fuck fuck fuck

8 more days until I've gone a month. That means that a week from this thursday will mean I've gone a solid 31 days. If I can't find some answers to my problems by then, I'm done and I'll switch to some kind of plan to masturbate in moderation in order to still have the extra energy but without going to this extreme in which I feel like a WILD ANIMAL.

If I was getting regular sex and I was able to bike and get exercise... not masturbating might work but as it is I just can't function.

After going 23 days I'm farely confident I could go indefinitely but as things are I'm not accomplishing the things I want to accomplish and that's the only reason I decided to do this in the beginning.

 

wow... you are extremly cute.

 

Well it's over. I couldn't stand spending another day without masturbating.

All I cared about is sex and nothing was getting done. I feel a lot better now. I can actually think about doing things other than trying to get laid.

I think the lesson here is moderation. Masturbate a little less and you'll feel more energy, more bold, and more confident but don't go overboard or you'll lose all your focus and stop caring about the things that matter to you.

If I have a girlfriend or a fuck buddy then maybe I'll quit again but for now... moderation is the word of the day.

I appreciate everybody who made supportive comments. A few words can mean a lot.

This was definitely worth it. It's amazing how the chemistry of your brain can alter your thoughts and feelings. I honestly think that if you go enough time without sex, you could end up killing somebody or at least being a real asshole.

 

you are VERY,vErY,VeRy,veRY interesting guy.
i spent like 45minutes reading all these posts and now i couldn't stop laughing.

i have a friend who claims that he never jerks off,and the only chance for his sperm to come out is to have sex with a girl. you know,he is really aggressive,short tempered,depressed,and sometimes very dangerous.i would say that he is in poor mental health.

anyway,i would like to know you. u r realllllllly interesting.

 

by the way,I seriously suggest you to write a book based on all these posts(including your journal and all the comments). it doesnot have to be a long story;a thin book will do.

i m sure it will sale.

....oh gosh....i can't help laughing........


i mean no offence.

 

dude you inspired me im only trying a week though to reap the benefits without the carelessness or trouble focusing

 

"I think about it for a second and then realize that I'm different and invincible and that the movie of the universe in which I'm the main character can't afford to kill me off. "


LOL that has to be the best line in this whole piece.

About the motorcycle - I've done everything i could to live dangerously - skydived, bungee jumped, rock climbing, etc - and the only accident i ever had (which nearly killed me and has left me with permanent damage) happened when i tried to open my window. If you want the motorcycle, get the motorcycle.