I have deja vu SO OFTEN. It's like being plugged into eternity. As I make each decision, it feels like it was predetermined. Even that realization itself. I try to do the opposite of what "comes next", only to realize that the decision to not do what was supposed to be done was what was supposed to happen. It's like the present forces the past and future to snap into place...
do you sleep very late and sleep in most of the day? that easily causes that sort of confusion. if you have a bad sleep schedule. i used to work graveyard at the railroad, and because i would sleep during the day alot, i would think that the dreams were real
not to be a downer, but maybe if you stopped smoking pot for a while it'd not only help you're "brain damage", but also a bit with the "no money" thing.
Marijuana can do funny things to your brain greengirl, I felt myself changing and losing touch with reality so i stopped smoking, and after a few weeks I had come back to normal. I know it sucks to quit but it's your choice, keep smoking and keep feeling out of touch or come back.
I would caution more against acohol use than pot. I've had similar periods in my life,when my sons mom got mentally ill I sort of went with her.Just not to the extreme she did, so maybe others around you are having similar experiences? As far as I know THC does not kill brain cells,alcohol however has been shown to lower IQ over years of abuse.Meditation and quiet time helps me get clear when I take the time If you do go crazy I suggest taking others with you Just Kidding