Boy Have I Got One For You... Tripping From Sensations In Sex

My partner and I are working up to fisting.
Today was the first serious attempt. Not to completion.

My pelvis is small, I have significant scarring from giving birth in 1991. So, it's a sloooow process.

He was well lubed, slow, checking in... and I was tripping.
Seeing colors, hearing scent, tasting light.

I'm well versed in psychedelics, and this was full on sensory crossover. I couldn't really talk. The trip lasted an hour after the experience.

This is very different from my synesthesia. I don't think that it was just the daily on steroids.

I know my brain is wired oddly... but does anyone else get psychedelic flashes or full on trips from this or other intense sexual activity.

I can't really say there was an orgasm, in either a local or whole body sense...maybe the latter.

 

I guess "ducking" would just look like a typo.
I didn't think I was slick. I wanted those who know to respond.


To clarify, I did not ingest anything.
The trip was all natural. Came on crazy fast. If I could bottle this....

I cannot say that fisting turns me on. The idea was intruiging.
This was a first experience.
Suggested by a simple question on a long, lonely night of emailing with my partner. We'd talked about what we wanted to do with the other. A simple have you ever had a fist in your pussy? My reply? Sounds terrifying.
But I was intruiged. I'm not dating some Uber Dom kinkster. He's gentle. Playful. Pain is NOT his thing, either way. Like me he's vanilla with a twist of spice.
He'd done it once, 25 years ago.

So what do I do? I research.
And he noticed me observing his hands in a different way, casually and through the lens of my camera.
He caught the close up manouver and smiled and winked on stage.
I blushed crimson.
So we started talking about it, briefly.
He'd let the subject slide.
I'd focused on other activities, too.

I joked that my brain had to be onboard. The rest would follow (cue Free Your Mind).

But I kept thinking about it, kept asking questions on message boards that cater to kink.
I saw my comfort zone would be limited. Those kinkster are hard core.

Yesterday, I was so worked up, that he settled in, and what I thought was just teasing turned into trying.
Checked in a lot, told me more than once that it doesn't have to work the first time.
He's about to go back on the road. I think he was looking for the bonding.
It worked.
Our aftercare and conversation was more intimate than usual. His eyes were different. There was wonder and amazement.

So, I can say, now, that the idea of being so closely bound with a partner through the experience is a definite turn on. (I do think it's THIS partner. Prior to being lovers, we have a decade of friendship, too)
Honestly, if the chemistry does this again, I could get hooked on the high.
Yes, there was intensity and some pain. Reminiscent of virginity loss, which it sort of was.
I'm eager to try a better lube and try again.

 

That was sort of my original response to the suggestion, VG.
I understand.

 

You don't get anatomy, do you?

I know your hall is long and convoluted, but what I'm playing with is shortish with a locked door.

 

You are welcome.

 

Rev, I'm betting the nerve roots are close. They all come out of the sacral plexus.

JoKing, I certainly want to try again. More lube, maybe change up when in the festivities.

 

Can the male fisting fans enlighten me on why this is exciting for men, in real life?

 

Curiouser and Curiouser

We were simply talking on the phone about the experience and the weird triply sub space/ sexual synesthesia whatever the heck this stuff is came back.

Flashbacks.

Yeah, yeah, for years I said "can't have a flashback if you never left."
But woooow.

And now I'm assuring him that it's perfectly ok, a comfortable headspace for me, yes, let's keep trying, please.