I found out I was bisexual when I got into boys. I never spoke about it but I knew it was normal despite what others may have thought. It is what it is? Then I know a kid in my class to was a Transgendered woman and she was beautiful I had a crush on her when she was a "boy" but she was beautiful they she was suppose to be. I had a crush on her and it scared me. I realized I was Pansexual. I would watch MTF videos and FTM videos. I like cis gender men and women but I also love Transgender men and women. Am I the only one?
I don't think you're alone. I think a transgendered man with passable feminine features is sexy. I like tits and cock with a pretty face.