Bipolar 1 and 2 ???

I'm severely bipolar I and have tried life with and without medication and I know that I cannot function normally without meds.

 

ya know what i find cute half the cats on this thread think that bipolar is a load of b.s. but they probably don't go though it themselves or they just withness,deal with or watch their friends or fam possable go though it ,thats just somethin ain't it? Lol,its kinda a living hell ,but if you do have it and you can hold a job and pay rent somehow no matter how much, if you live with fam or w.e. ,no matter how your abilities fluctuate,your doing alright,I feel for yous guys out there who have a little of this and that like myself,honestly needant worry if your life is like a warpped trippy movie spectacle You cant ecscape just relax and be-aware of yourself .If you feel sketchy to youself calm down let your mood run its course .You can also vibe with it and just thing of the past things you've accomplished just try to remember how to focus on your tasks at hand .I go though this daily and take no meds

Although I suggest finding/making dough(money) somehow in an honest way and taking a karate course, Its very effective for me and it gives you one thing you know you gotta keep track of and look forward to ,to me when I go to the dojo everyone there is constantly learning and teaching what they know, its a fun way to unravel your muffed up mind and unwind, karate...good stuff,

Also another thing to look forward to, If you have problems finding a sweetheart or a girl to hang with for one time but you don't go out cause you think you'll sabatoge yourself,talk to one of your very few friends and ask about the next get together ask to invite some girls and besties and just hang ,wilst hangin ,try to relax and socialize in the most subtle way you know how.Dont let yourself get werid because if you do you have to improvize it to the best of what you assume others think is normal. Everybody has things they are afraid of as well "insecurities,fears,and inhibitions" thing they've learned to hide well ,maybe they don't have such things like a bipolar ,adhd,add,or like some personality disorder, but again they have other issues you wont know about sometimes.
Just live,laugh,love. Go mad ,get collected and or keep on keepin on ,but just keep this in mind if you haven't suceeded in your suicide attempts so then they were not ment to be if you try that sort of thing ,maybe a higher power wants to keep suffering or something,but know this my friends , just relax and live your life because if you tried or want to try that route ,then your destorying not only yourself or your problems but surely and foremost the times that may have a chance of improving and becoming better.
FART ,LAUGH,LOVE

 

Being bi-polar is not bs! My mom has tried to kill herself twice because of it. My Uncle was diagnosed with sever "manic depression" in 1984 and hung himself in 1985. Unfortunately bi-polar and tri-polar run in my family rampantly. The bad part is that if going un-treated bi-polar disorder can become worse and possible turn into psychosis. I have done some crazy shit because of my untreated disorder. I punched my manager in the face because she was screaming at me once, I left my lover of 8 years and disappeared for 4 days while going though a manic phase. This is nothing to play around with...the worst part is NO ONE takes it seriously until it's too late. Try going to your local community mental health center and see how they treat you...like fucking shit!! I'm sorry, but a 30 minute therapy session where the therapist just sits there and looks at you and expects you to spill your entire life to them when you have trust issues in the first place does not work!!! Anti-depressants only make you feel like a fucking zombie and have terrible side effects. I have yet to find a medication that works for me except xannax. I ONLY take it when I'm having a manic phase, which is about every other day.

 

The people who think bipolar is BS are just sharing an emotion. They have not taken the time to research the subject prior to sharing their feelings. Bipolar disorder is an incurable disease. An actual disease. It takes 10 years off a persons life with a host of other problems. I have bipolar II but if it keeps getting worse I am going to be in the I zone soon. You have to do exactly as advised:

1. See you psychiatrist once a month
2. Get into therapy
3. Take your medication at the exact same time ever day.
4. Learn how to control the disease instead of having it control you

It's a lot harder to control it than people think. But I'm trying. I just hope the people around me can put up with me for a little longer while I learn. My episodes come on out of nowhere. I have no idea why it started or when it will end. I just know I have to be on super high alert with myself until it goes away. So I work hard at it.

There are side facets of being bipolar that have nothing to do with mood. People don't realize that. You can't focus. You can't concentrate. I can't remember anything it seems. You can't sleep. Anxiety and bipolar are like peanut butter and jelly.

Lastly I would advocate the use of cannabis for bipolar treatment. Not by itself but with other therapy and most likely medication. BUT I have not tried cannabis oil. I did not want to go on benzos like they want you to take. So I tried cannabis instead because I didn't have a lot of ideas. Works very nicely for insomnia and anxiety. But I'm using CBD heavy strains. I don't feel any real psychoactive effects. A little. But hardly. So I'd still like to experiment to find a good strain for mood. I haven' had one.

 

I remember back when I was diagnosed as being bi-polar, they didn't specify BPD1 or BPD2, had me on some pretty toxic meds, and then I found out a few years (and $15-20,000 out of my f*ing pocket) later that I wasn't BP, instead Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Like WTF is this bullshit? Let's put your ass on meds for something you ain't got. Which is what they did to me.

So I don't tell people they aren't ill, but I will suggest they get a second and third opinion from other doctors.

 

Rapid cycling

 

PMS lol