Being a guy who doesn't get girls

from what i've seen on pornhub, he just needs to let his stepsister catch him jacking off and sex will follow.

 

Is that in your most popular videos for you too? Cause I dont watch them and they're highly recommended for me lol.

 

oh yeah. i think i saw that they were giving you the option to filter that out now since there's so much of it showing up.

 

I'm going to try to offer my best responses to your points here without the "woe is me stuff". I know everyone is saying I just whine and don't take advice, but there are some things you said here that I think, while it's good/reasonable advice, it won't work, and I'll try to explain why.

First, to your your point about pectus excavatum and exercise, I have this to say - Trust me, there are no exercises that can correct the malformations of the body caused by pectus excavatum, especially not a severe case like mine. Your bone structure is what it is. Maybe someone with an extremely slight, barely detectable case of PE can do exercises and improve their posture, but not cases like mine. Believe me or don't believe me, but my case of PE was/is one of the worst on record. You see, when I was four, my parents took me to Vanderbilt hospital to be examined for possible surgery. The doctor there was not privy to extreme cases like mine, and instead referred me to a specialist surgeon in Houston, TX. This surgeon did PE corrective surgeries exclusively, and had thousands of surgeries under his belt. When he examined me, he told my parents that I was among the worst he had seen. He performed the surgery, but back then the techniques were not very good, thus my results were not great. Later on as I went through puberty my chest sunk back in, and I went back to the doctor in Texas to be re-examined for surgery again. This time, he remarked that the deformity was even worse, and that the measures for correcting the sunken sternum would require much more complicated and drastic methods/techniques. My sternum now touched my backbone, and had a corkscrew-like twist in the center. So the second surgery was performed at age 18, and my chest no longer caves in, but the sunken chest is only a small part of what Severe PE does to your body. Your whole back and upper torso have to grow around the deformity, which results in lots of other physical maladies. My back has a bizarre curvature that cannot be fixed, you have the under-developed chest that recedes from where it should be, flared ribs, forward-bowed shoulders, and the "pot-belly" look. It's called "pectus posture", and I'm not sure why they call it "posture" because it has nothing to do with posture. This is the body shape extreme pectus leaves you with. In my particular case, it's a very bizarre, ugly, fucked up look that would put one on the "eternally doomed" list when it comes to women. I'll never have a look or figure that women would be desirous of. There's no point in doing things like going to the beach where there are other guys running around with good bodies and can freely take their shirts off and flaunt their normal bodies. Its 100% pointless to go out to bars/clubs where people have to look at you before making a decision as to whether or not they're interested to talk/get to know you. All it takes is one other average guy added to the situation and you can forget me having any chances.

You also made some other points about changing my perspective about people etc... Well, all I can say is I just don't like people and I don't think I ever will. I don't understand the majority of people. I don't share the same fundamental mindset as most people. I don't mean to be contrary, I've just always been this way. Anytime there's ever been an influx of people in one place, and socializing is taking place, the first thing I do is get the hell out of there. I also just don't like conversation, and I hate small talk. I do not like music or dancing, and I just overall hate the stupid, predictable shit that most people do. I can't explain it, I just don't like people or social situations.

 

OK then. If you don't like people or conversation and believe no one will accept you before you even give them a chance, maybe your decision to avoid folks and be alone is the best thing. I hope you can find happiness, and love and accept yourself. As a human being, I think most people try to accept others. I hope you have or find a few good friends. Your parents obviously gave you the best care they could and they love you. Good luck.

 

I've recently made some good progress towards acceptance, and towards building the simple life off the radar I mentioned I wanted. I recently bought some farm equipment (hay cutting equipment). My days recently have consisted of lots of hard work, and its been great. It's great to be self-sufficient.

I've also completely disconnected from all social media. I only use the internet now to look up parts for equipment, and just to look up information on technical stuff needed for work. I never did spent much time on the internet anyways.

The life I'm building as a hermit is working out like it should I think. It just makes tons more sense for me than trying to chase some mirage that is never going to happen for me, like trying "improve myself" and attract women, and become more social, etc... I think that was always just a farce of a goal. I think the track I'm on now is right for me. Just pulling myself from the world completely and indefinitely is the right thing for me. I stay so busy now with hard work that it's limiting the time I have to think about my plight with girls, and with social stuff in general. I think just accepting it and moving forward by pursuing a life alone is the answer.