Asking for help from psychic who can possibly help with a loved one who passed away

I not so sure if someone can help me on this subject I'm requesting assistance from a psychic. My grandmother passed away January 7th 2012. She kinda of drifted away from me before that like wouldn't accept phone calls and wouldn't speak to me for about 2 weeks before she passed away. Her name was Joan. She was born October 6th 1934. She and my grandpa raised me and adopted me. I think maybe she knew she was passing. She landed in the hospital about a day before she died and the day she died I visited the hospital when I got there her pupils where dialated and she was staring straight at the ceiling with a strange moan. I told her I loved her but she couldn't respond she died about 20 minutes after I left. It broke my heart and was awful painful I was very attached to her and my heart was broken. I need closer on this. I feel she left this world hating me. But deep down I know that can't be true we where best friends she was my mother and grandmother she was my world. If someone can please help I'd be forever grateful. I also need to know if she's still with me and if there's any signs I should look for? Like I've heard loved ones will leave objects for us to find such as pennies or whatnots. And if she'd has anything shed like to tell me? My birthdate is December 10th 1984. If u need additional info please ask!! Thanks to anyone who can help!!

 

listen for a bird singing , then , just then pay close attention to the
everything close-by around you . perhaps you'd write back and tell us
what you noticed .

 

Hmm... A bird flew in the house a few weeks ago as did one before she died. I was told that's a sign of death about to come but maybe it wasn't? And yes I can do that! Thanks!

 

I don't think she hated you at all in her last weeks. It is more likely that facing you and death at the same time was too hard for her because she loved you. Looking at you knowing she would be gone soon could have made the process far more traumatic for her and she decided not to face that situation. Dig deep...you know she loved you.

 

Hi Ashleyarson

Wanted to reply sooner but my modem stopped working while I was doing energy healing. I know better when sending energy as I have lost at least 3 computers. But enough of my challange.

As to your Grandmother. Yes, she loves you and you were her world and heart as well. She always felt blessed having you in her life. She comes through with a box that looks like it was for a special occasion. You liked the bow and did not want to open the box because it was beautiful. There was a sweater in the box. She ask if you remember what she said to you? She told you life hands us suprises and reminders that we are loved. She also shows me the first flowers you picked for her. She also had a scarf she wore you gave her. Love is the magic of the little things we experience. Love is also about the journey that sometimes we must and choose to walk alone.

When she knew she was getting ready to cross over she wanted and needed to do this part on her own. She was balancing out her life and choices and learning to forgive her self where she felt she had failed. Somethings she never said to you but never doubt that she loved you with her whole heart. She understood you thought she was in a lot of pain the last time you saw her but she was not. Her Spirit was seperating from the flesh and the flesh was struggling to hold on. She knew if you were with her during the end she would not have been able to let go of the flesh even though it was her time. She did not want you to feel sad and depressed. Do you remember the things she said about the stars lighting up the night? You lit up her life and she will always be near you as you need. Just talk to her and do not fear the dark.

In Numerology her number is 7, yours is 8. You have both completion hers and yours is abundance. Do not doubt who you are. Life will make you strong if you let it. Just let your light shine and stay true to your own heart. You can do what ever you put your mind and heart to.

I see her smiling and smell cookies baking. She does understand and if she had things to do over again would share with you what was happening. For example she says that what we make up in our mind about heaven or hell or life and death is what we will face on the other side. We learn to open our eyes and soul to the bigger picture and then enter the place of healing and wonders she finds hard to explain. She was greeted by others who loved her and feels truly blessed. She says she knows you are strong and and sometimes doubt how beautiful you are. Life is about learning how we see our self and the power of our thoughts. Follow your dreams and stay true to your own heart. She says she believes in you and LOVES YOU.

 

Thank you so much, it's still very hard to this day without her and I miss her so much, this has helped a lot thank you