Can't be bothered for the essay so I'll do this in bullet point form style and tell me what you think. I'm confused about my sexuality basically. Reasons I feel straight - I've always felt straight, been attracted to women sexually and emotionally from a very young age. Up until very recently I have always been seeing girls, whether it be kissing at preteen years, fingering and blowjobs etc at teen ages, sex at 15... and always enjoyed it and felt right. I have never 'fancied' a guy, or felt any emotional connection other than friendship, and don't really see it being possible. Had one proper girlfriend who I was in love with, a lot of sex activity and I was perfectly happy. I always check out girls on the street, and can see myself with them. Reasons I feel not straight/gay - I watch gay and straight porn, but I think I prefer gay (it seems to get me off easier) I occasionally have gay dreams, and even though it isnt clear whether I enjoy them or not, I wake up with an erection. Since a young age I have been interested in big penises, wanting to touch them etc and fantisized about this. I have given head once before Although as I said before I love women sexually, out of my 4 sexual partners, with 3 I have gone soft during or just before intercourse, (even though the foreplay has been fine) I have a slight fetish for rimming, giving and receiving (only really on girls, but still, thats a gay thing isnt it?...) Basically I know it may sound like I'm bi but I still feel like I'm straight. About a year ago when I was seeing my longterm girlfriend I didnt care if I had these fantasies because I would never wish to act upon them, I was having sex with a beautiful girl and I was happy. However, since we've been broken up and I've been failing to have sucessful sex with other girls, its made me wonder if that's the end of my straight life and I now need to seek out men. As I said I have 'tried out' (given head) but it didnt really make it any more clear, i.e. it didnt feel really right, but then again it didnt put me off... Please help!