Are You Ready to Die?

not yet i'd really like to do sum traveling first

 

I use religious reference bc it is what most ppl relate to when asked questions that came not be answered in a rational way.. or to be 'just that away' without any thought..

I think it a transference of energy, it leaves the vessal to find another type of host.. energy creates, and needs a means to move matter in that which is created/manifested by Will.

When we enter we are aware, in the womb we are awake, our bodies nurishes it's self and sleeps and grows. It moves and streaches and it's heart beats. When does that eletrical impulse start and does it end or continue on another plane of existance.

But the question is, Are You Ready To Die..

After dying a thousands deaths already, what's one more.

 

I died 24 years abo on aug 13 when the unmarked UN vehicl I was driving was hit buy an explosive device. I had worked for the UN as a guild and field medic all over the world off and on for 12 years. My last assignment was to take 3 highly specialized doctors and 2 nurses into a country that had recently been occupied by Sadam Husain. No flights were alowed in and and military action was not possable. But reports of sering gas attacks had gotten out with fishermen and we were sent to see exactly what had happend and offer any aid possable.
We spent 2 days working with a score of people. Mostly weman and children. The gas had no real delivery system but it was one of the worst things I'd seen in a decade of such work.
We got a report of anouther attack and 1 murse 2 doctors and myself left after midnight to try to find the second sight. I never saw what hit us but it exploded inside the armored vehicle making the blast even more intence,
I couldn't move or see or hear but there was plenty of pain. Every bone in my legs broken. Spinal cord crushed, and disk pressing on C3 and C6.
Theres more--took 3 days to get out to a US carrier group that flew me to Hawaii. Here I was told everyone eles on mission had died and I begged them to let me die. I was told I would never walk or use my hands again, My face was torn off, teeth broken off. There wasn't much upside.
I was sent to rehab of the pacific after about 8 months of surgurys. Here I was told again not to get my hopes up.
long story short I was an ass but I walked out of there. It took years before I walk normaly, and 10 years before my hands alowed me to play guitar.
Somedays I don't understand why I lived. I was the expendable person on that mission.

 

next wed, no tue the 17 I have a biopsy schedualed. This will be the 25th or so since 2 summers ago. Honnestly I'm haveing a hard time careing what they say. Euthanasia may not be legal but since when has that stopped me.

Unfortunatly I am seriously opiat tolerant. And I hate bloody messes. I'm open to ideas--if you knew the whole story I think you'd be okay with it.

 

Not while my family needs me.

 

there's a few more things I'd like to learn before I go, and since no one can ever learn all there is to know I don't see how I could ever really be ready to die. there will always be things to learn, I know that after death that all this will truly be irrelevant but it doesn't make the notion any easier. we are here to learn, our brain is to hold knowledge so the purpose is to learn all that you can in the time you have but I will never be satisfied with having learned just "enough"

 

^ excellent post. :2thumbsup: There are things I, too, want to learn and do before I cross to the other side.

I have a son and look forward (crossing fingers) to one day being a grandmother...so, no I'm not "ready".

However, I am not scared in the least. In fact, death is one of the experiences I'm certain I will one day experience and I don't dread it nor fear it.

In fact, I'm a lot more scared that I'll break another dang bone than I am of death. :wheelchair: ----< :yikes:

 

no one ever is. i'm in no hurry to either. but i like to think i have come to accept the reality that sooner or later i will. my heart reminds me of this reality form time to time. and i'm not referring to some metaphysical 'heart' either. i'm talking about my physical one. it has a clinically diagnosed condition and i was able to sneak a peek at the real time ultrascan as the technician was recording it.

and that was several years ago. i'm 66. and if i'm still around for my 67th birthday, which i am reasonably likely to be, i will have outlived terry pritcert by a year. my mom lived to 91, but there's just no way i know of that's going to happen for me.

i am i prepared for my awareness to simply fade out into non-existence, possibly with some rapidity? yes. reasonably so. but i would really prefer to do so alone. in a state of meditation.

i am i prepared that something other then total nonexistence MIGHT follow that? i like to think so as well.

do i believe conventionally popular beliefs about it, particularly those of the dominant name brand of belief in the part of this world where i live? while all things are possible, i do not find them compellingly probable.

sorry if someone else has a problem with that, but if they do, that is their problem which they are very welcome to keep to themselves.