it took me a long time to understand what i was doing at the gathering. when i started really working alot i got it for myself. since then i always feel like i'm flowing with the spirit of the family. rainbow is alot of different things to alot of different people. what i have found is that the more i put in the more i get back. now my wife and i are about to have a baby. we are so excited to be able to raise our own child in an atmosphere where people are there for one another, where the schisms babylon has dressed us in melt away. this is my heartsong to you all. if you come to the gathering looking for a party, you will probably have a blast. but if you come looking for utopia and want to create utopia, you can! and i can't think of anything i'd rather do than create that with you, for ourselves and our children. love and hugs.