are you lonesome tonight?

empty as in lost and confused. being lonely isn't my favourite thing to be, but when i settle back into that state of mind i feel more like myself. it's comforting to need something.

 

I like being empty/free lots of times....time to just draw, play guitar, or howl at the moon...its the main reason I'm up till after 3 am most nights

 

yes exactly. when i'm in thecompany of others i always feel like i have to entertain them or be interesting somehow. and often times i don't, cause i don't like to try too hard. then i feel lame afterward for wasting their time. there's only a select few people i can stand to be around for long periods of time without being tense.

 

yeah.. being alone is often - most of the time - nice.
it's kind of.. a mellow emotion
to not have to bother anyone else or be bothered by anyone else
just you and your thoughts.
it's good.

most of the times.

now I just really wanna hang with someone, not talking just.. being.
but the only 2 people I can do that with don't have time for me..

 

People probably give you more attention than you asked them for, so you feel like you have to justify the attention they're giving you.

It's like you're in the audiance watching a show and suddenly for some reason they turn the spotlight on you.
Wtf? You're just there to watch the show like everybody else, right?

after it happens enough times you figure you might as well be up on stage, so you start putting on a show.....

 

Almost everyone I've ever been friends with is comfortable being around me even when we aren't talking...to me that's absolutely crucial.

I knew this guy who wasn't at all, and he would launch into the same stories over and over again to fill the space...had to lose him

 

I'm kind of feeling lonely.. Feeling lonely is the worst feeling ever.

 

No. Riding a motorcycle and having a bee fly into your helmet just as you're going into a downhill turn and suddenly remembering your healh insurance expired 2 days ago is worse.

 

Haha, I suppose you're right.

Wow.. you should start selling insurances. :H

 

a sockhop? what's that?

 

all I'd have to do is walk around in a speedo so everybody could see my scars.

I'm a walking edorsment for full coverage.

 

yep exactly, you know how it is. i just don't see what i do that deserves all the attention i get. it seems my friends rely on me to entertain them (usually they're over at my house so i guess they think i should be a good hostess) and it makes me feel like i'm not allowed to have a shitty day or be upset unless i do it in private. i can however around a few people like i said before, but a lot of the time i feel like i'm catering to their needs and acting in a way that pleases them. i guess it doesn't help that i'm a performer. i couldn't live without being on stage, but that doesn't mean i wanna feel like i am ALL THE TIME!

 

I'm lonely, it's going on 5:45 PM here, and I'm waiting for my hubby. I had him stop by the store on his way home from work to pick up some things that I needed to make dinner tonight, so he's running later than usual. Normally he's home between 5:15 and 5:30 PM.

I've been feeling down in the dumps and lonely today. It was dreary and rainy out, so we were stuck inside all day, plus my arms, neck and back are killing me because my twins are getting huge and I've been carrying the two of them at once more often than usual these past few days.

I don't know, just feeling kind of sad and can't wait for him to get home. I need a hug in a major way.

Peace all...

 

im especially lonely tonight. my friend Matt who died in December would have turned 18 today. im missing him so much right now

 

"The girls, and a few guys, went to the girls' gym, took their shoes off, and danced to the new sound of rock and roll."

A get together that originated in the 50's.

They were later superseded by discos...

 

interesting. hell id be up for that.

 

I was/am more into things like Troll Bridges out in the Country...*c*

Ever converse w/a Troll?

 

troll bridges? you've lost me....

 

how did loneliness turn to this?

 

Round here there are bridges over the water canals in the rice fields.
Under the bridges live Trolls.

Few are seen as they are leery of Humans...