Any Other Late Bloomers Here?

I consider myself a late bloomer. I am 45 and started watching male porn when I was 40. Never acted on it but a cock turns me on. I’ve experimented with a life like dildo and a prostate massager. Now that I’ve moved to California I’m really bi courious.

 

Like some others who have posted, I had what I considered normal experimentation with boys in my youth - just blowjobs. Then in my 40's my wife and I started to swing. It was great and we both enjoyed "the lifestyle".....one thing I noticed was that it was standard for women to "play" - normally as part of foreplay (kissing, licking boobs, etc.). BUT, it was strictly forbidden for guys to even touch each other. Seemed like a double standard. I talked to my wife about it, and she agreed. I was open with her about my youthful experiences. So one night when we were having a threesome with our favorite single male (who is also a good friend), I made a move. We were quite drunk and she had talked about how good he was at eating her pussy. So I was watching....he was on his knees and elbows licking her and I reached back and started stroking his cock. I thought he might resist, but he kind of lifted his leg - giving me better access. I took this as a good sign and soon moved down and started sucking his cock - he lifted his leg more, so I know he was into it. My wife say it and seemed to enjoy it.

 

I don't know how "late" this can be considered, but I had never questioned my straightness until I was 14 and I saw Brokeback Mountain. In fact, after seeing it I had a mini identity crisis (that felt more than mini at the time!) where I started to look at guys and freak out because I was wondering if I found them attractive, which I did. This became 2 years of major confusion for me, because until that point I had only ever desired girls, and even my first major crush was a girl. It still kind of confuses me now, honestly, because the turning point was so drastic. Now I am much more attracted to guys. Has anyone else experienced such a major shift from strictly heterosexual thinking/desire to the opposite?

 

I'm 48, been bi-curious for years, but have never acted on it.Live in the Bible Belt (East Tennessee), so that is one issue. I don't have any bi or gay friends, but do have plenty of judgmental family. I also do not drive due to medical issues, which leaves out visiting gay clubs. And having sex with a random stranger in a mall or department store bathroom is too risky for a number of reasons.

 

Probably should have known i was bi as a young teen i liked to dress in my mom's clothes, bra and panties, dresses etc. Led me to many other things

 

I think sexuality can be fluid depending on where you are in life, or my life. My first time with another guy was as a soph in HS. A neighbor and I, out after dark, doing who knows what. We were half heartedly arguing about something trivial, and he told me to either shut up or suck his dick. So out behind my parents' shed he dropped his pants and I saw my first hard cock other than my own. I sucked it and swallowed what he gave me. A few days after we pitched a tent at the back of the property and camped out. He brought one of his dad's Playboys, and we got horned up looking at the beautiful women. I got pissed that he was hogging the rag, and he said to shut up or......... So I did suck him again, and he reciprocated. We went to sleep but in the middle of the night I woke up, and seeing his naked cock I wanted it again. So I did! Then early in the morning we sucked each other off again, and went about the day. We hooked up 3-4 times a month all through HS. He told a mutual friend that I sucked cock, and guess where that found me? Probably a half dozen times until he found a girlfriend. Still hooked up with the first friend.

Graduated HS and family moved us 1000 mi away. As a fresh in college I met a girl and we dated for two years. Yeah we were both no longer virgins. After my soph year we broke up when I went back to college in the same town of my old HS. Even though I had a FWB and him a GF, I hooked up with my old suck buddy several times. When I graduated I moved to a distant state for a job and never looked back. Had a long time live in GF, eventually married my ex, and now married 20+ years. We did a few MFMs with a college friend, and thought about finding a bi guy for a threesome. Never found one. The last two years have been sexless. My wife introduced me to her gay hairdresser. Later he told her that he thought I was hot, and he'd like to "gay me up"! He's the first guy I've been physically attracted to. Handsome, masculine, confident. He started flirting with me via text and that other side of me came back. One night on a whim I asked if I could stop by his house. I did, and the ensuing makeout session rocked my world. Never in a million years did I think I'd be kissing a guy, but he was different. Passionate....intense. He left me wanting so much more. He's someone Id trust to show me the ropes. I fantasize about him not just fucking me, but making love to me. Unfortunately his old BF came back in the picture so I'm at a loss. No way could I do a random hookup, but with him I'd have no problems doing whatever he wanted. So here I am.......a sexless marriage and wanting more!