Hi Everyone! This is my first post and I imagine by the time I'm done typing, a lot will have blurted out so please bear with. My fiance and I have been together now for about a year. We started as friends and became inseparable until we had to admit that we're in love. Now we're happy together and working out the kinks of transition from friends to a relationship. I proposed because I want to be with her and we both want to be married. We're both 30. I take care of her like she has never been taken care of. Her family is awful to her and I stood up to them for her. She gets taken advantage of at work and I've helped to remedy this as well. Also, her house(which we now live in together with her young children) has been my project and I've fixed it up from top to bottom. I do things like take the kids to the store randomly and get her a new diamond necklace because I love to watch her be surprised on some random day. Everything seems peachy...right? Well since we've now been living together for 5 months, I've had a chance to ask some questions and pinpoint a few things. Prior to living here and when I first moved in, she had told me a few lies pertaining to her divorce and her current situation. She also lied a few times about things she had done when we first started sleeping together...about being with someone else once back then. I've forgiven all the lies but one night while we were discussing parts of it that were still bothering me, she admitted that she fantasizes during sex. Sometimes when blowing me and other times when actually having sex. As we got in to the conversation and I took it all in, she admitted that she has closed her eyes and thought about other people who she had recently interacted with. She said it's because she was slightly bored with the sex we were having and she didn't know why. She also said that it had no bearing on her attraction to me. Now I've slept with my fair share of women. I definitely like to dabble in the freaky side of things so I'm not quite clear on how this affects me. She says that she has never fantasized from start to finish but only a few seconds here or there or max of 30 seconds thinking about someone else. I explained that it was like she was pretending I was someone else and she agreed so she has been trying to keep her eyes open to prove she wants to be with me. That's great except now she barely has an orgasm at all when they used to be screaming. I feel like she is still hiding the full truth and her fantasies were much more in depth and extended and now that she isn't having them, she isn't satisfied. I also second guess that with thinking that maybe she is over-thinking the whole thing and in her efforts to prove she's with me, she isn't letting go. On top of all of that, every time we have sex now and she doesn't get off, I leave the bedroom feeling like I'm not good enough or she'd rather be fantasizing about someone else and I'm an alpha in all aspects so this bothers me greatly. I'm just curious to see what other people think. I wouldn't go to anyone personally with this but I'm at a loss and I'd love some outside input. Thanks in advance for any answers/help!!