I've considered myself straight for years. I've been exclusively attracted to women since I hit puberty. But it's always been a question. When I was 12, my neighborhood friend and I used to play with each others penises. We were at the age where we had just barely discovered our sex drive, and didn't yet know what it was. We just thought it was fun and felt good to play with each others private parts. Until we got caught one day. My conservative parents freaked out over the thought of their son being gay. I didn't even know what sexuality was yet. But not long after this, as I slowly discovered masturbation, I also became very attracted to women. When I was in high school, I was just a typical sexually frustrated angry teenager. A friend and I were hanging out one night when a girl we went to school with sent one of us some naughty pictures. We masturbated in the same room as each other, looking at the picture. We both swore it wasn't gay because we were looking at the girl. But we both definitely enjoyed it. Ever since then, I've never really thought much about it. I was just straight. I had sex with women. I am engaged to a woman. I love women, but I do admire the beauty of a nice penis. I am not attracted to men, nor do I want to have a relationship, or even sex with a man. But something about seeing a cute cock arouses me. I don't think I want to do anything with one, but I enjoy looking... Also, I just "feel" bisexual. Although I don't believe I truly am.
You sound bi-curious if you want to put a label on it. I love women. I am not in any way attracted to men. I think in the right situation, such as in a MFM threesome, I wouldn’t really mind if I touched the other guy or anything of that nature as I’d mainly be focusing on my wife. Some things are hard to put labels on so it’s not even worth trying.
Your story lends me to believe you are a normal curious human being and nothing more. You have desires in the direction of women for sexual pleasure. Yet. you find pleasure in the sight of the male appendage. Based on how you described your interactions with your male friends while young and naïve does not indicate anything other than discovering how nice it feels to have your penis stimulated. Both were fun and enjoyable experiences. Leave it at that. Many men, myself included, find a good looking penis on a man attractive. It's not unlike being attracted to the sight of beautiful flower or sunset. It'll catch your eye and you will admire it but nothing more. Drop the label placing and just find what gives you pleasure. If you come to find same sex relations makes you happy so be it. If it's only with the opposite gender that you enjoy sex that's fine too. So is everything in between. The most important thing to know is there are a plethora of things in this world that will make you happy and love life. Discovering them makes you a curious loving human being and nothing more.
I think mostly that you are bi-curious Like you, I am very attracted to women, I just want to touch and lick and fuck them But I think about what it would be like to play with a guys cock. But no desire of doing it
Try it. You will learn about yourself and maybe you will like it. Or never do it again Chances are you will always be thinking about it
What you felt as a teenager and what you feel now are probably very different, and I would not consider you to be other than straight. Admiring a man's penis does not make you bi-curious or bi-sexual in my opinion. Whilst I never touched another boys penis in my teenage years, there were a few occasions where as someone who enjoys the freedom of being naked, I had an erection in front of others, and some boys did too.
