Am I A Schizophrenic?

Hi there,

I am new here, so before writing anything, I'd like to say hello to everybody!
I've been reading this forum for a while and must say that it is very interesting I hope I'll get your help.

I've noticed that for the past few days (maybe a week) I have been having a feeling that something is gonna appear behind the door (a creature or a demon). I've been having this since I was a child but in that time it was only after watching horror movies. BUT the important thing is: I'VE NEVER SEEN ANYTHING LIKE THAT IN MY LIFE. I just have a feeling that something is behind me or watching me. On the other hand, my mind knows that such thoughts are only products made by my brain but still I can't forget about it.

When I was a child and was going to a church (growing up in a catholic family) I was telling myself that God is a bitch. It was me (or a voice in my mind) that was telling such bullshit to myself. By that time I believed that it is a demon who is talking to myself. And it was always happening in the church. Maybe I was brainwashed by my grandparents who were telling me about evil and stuff like that. I couldn't really think like an adult, you know how it works. When you're a child you listen to your family and believe in what they say to you whether it is true or not.

It's really weird. I know that this is not possible because it is only happening in my brain, but I don't know how to overcome it. I've never been treated against any diseases like that.

I've been through some hardships in my life but would say that I am mentally okay. It's just those fucking feelings that something is behind me and when I turn around I'll see a creature. I'm trying to find an answer for that.

Any help?

 

Religious delusions are not exactly schizophrenia but there can be a bridge.

 

Maybe it stems from some early years programing. People who have left the church still feel a resonating guilt that they will still go to hell.

 

You're definitely not a schizo. You are simply experiencing paranoia that's triggered by something in your current life or environment. Your emotional response is to regress into a childlike state and perceive this issue as a "demon" or something that you may have associated with negativity as a child.

I would advise you to face your problems head-on, if possible. A lot of times things such as financial and emotional strain can manifest in the oddest ways.

 

Thank you very much. I will try to face it head-on. If I experience anything bad, I will let you know.

Thanks again!

 

Some scientists believe that most religious leaders/founders have mostly been high-functioning schizophrenics.

 

i smoked a certain synthetic weed once and i'm almost sure that's what schizophrenia is like, it has to be !

 

Sounds terrifying. You might be schizophrenic. In my opinion if this has continued to bother you, you should seek out some sort of psychiatric assistance.

 

religion never seems to help mental illness, it's a vector for many types of delusional thinking.

 

Ya think you got problems now... Just wait until you actually meet one of those things behind the door.

 

Just replace that dynamic with "there's some hot woman hiding behind my door to confess she's been stalking me and really wants me sexually.

Not being a smartass, but the situation you are afraid of has about as much chance of happening as the one I just mentioned. Just keep this in mind, no more problems hopefully.
Hope all goes well for you.

 

I have been camping outside his bedroom door though...

 

I'm a schizophrenic. In my most recent episode I became convinced that Robert DeNiro and Joe Pesci were coming to kill me. It sounds kind of funny in the light of day, but at the time it was absolutely terrifying. I could barely step outside the door.

 

Me too! But Bob and Joe finally did catch me. Turns out they just wanted to have a word; nothing more. What a relief.

Oh, and what they wanted to have a word about was where you could be found.

 

Voices in your head can be good friends.
But like good friends, you don't have to do any silly stuff they suggest.

Just say NO!

 

I remember back when I was 16, I was driving my 70 Plymouth Satellite (318- powered mom and pop version of a Road Runner car) from shop class to school. Had just smoked some good stuff and had a stupid thought, "what would happen if I just threw my transmission into Park while driving down the highway?!

Glad as fuck I didn't lol.
My friend said he had a little Taz on his shoulder once when he was tripping and driving. Don't remember the details of his story but it was pretty funny shit.

 

Joe Pesci was a wacko fuck in Goodfellas. I ever see him walk in a bar I'm going out the back door.

 

Yeah he's scary as hell.

 

No such thing as schizophrenia. It's just a label. Some people need meds though. I'm against pathologizing the mind,however strange minds might be. Madness is a sane reaction to an insane society. Roll with it.

 

I think schizophrenia happens when the mind over rides the authority of the intellect and ego and materializes destruction. But the mind can also over ride the intellect and ego and become enlightened.