Alright now this is

yeah it's bullshit and I already feel like shit about myself and so freaking ugly. I don't need these women spreading crap about me. I just puked all my pills up this morning and m jaunduce again and the urgent care doctor on call gave me these nutritional shakes (the kind for old people) and infused vitamin water to drink and then told me to go byy some pedialyte because even gatorade is to fucking hard on my stomach now. I was doing so much better and now I'm back where I started and my bowel movement just had tons of blood in it and I'm afraid to tell anyone because i don't wanna go back to the hospital because i hate the hospital and the nurses are mean and the male cna's are perverted and don't cover me up properly when they check my vitals and it just sucks i hate it and im back to square one drinking 800 calorie shakes, bananas and fucking pedialyte

 

get your ass to a doctor

you're not in a healthy place, you need mor rest, more nutrients and more care hun. Can you go to a different hospital? See a doctor instead of going to the hospital itself? Get an at-home nurse to come and give you an iv or something so you get all your water and vitamins and suchlike?

don't let you do this to yourself