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i think the above advice is good as it is well intended, and drinking is deadly and weed is sooo much less destructive and has the potential for lots of positive connections with the creator and the universe etc. There is alot to consider when mapping out a workable strategy to channel this kind of forceful creativity. *Therapy* will only work if it fully recognizes lil miss's deep psychological needs to express herself in dramatic, exciting and teaching ways. This MUST be Fully addressed and Appreciated.

 

eeeekkk!!! sooooooo haaappppyyy!!! ...anything i previously wrote about not being able to drink this weekend...welll..i take it all back!!....i talked to lance and things got all good because he realized its a long weekend and hes gonna wanna drink but he cant if i dont because it'll just be the two of us and if hes drinking and im not than thats just a big tease! lol...soooo now, wow am i ever happy lol...um i get to drink my face off tonight and have an effing blast! he told me i had to wait until midnight when he gets off work to start drinking and i said mmmhmmmm but yah right! pff like hell i can wait till then, i'll probably start around like 8! later everyone!! xoxox

 

geez, jen, come on, thats just sick..hes going to leave you if you dont stop drinking so much, yet you cat get through a single weekend without drinking cause he wants to drink too?

isnt there something wrong with this picture?

 

your right i cant get through a weekend and i dont care..i just dont care..im going to have a great time this weekend and nothing is going to ruin that for me!...i could have spent my long weekend smashed the whole time but im not!...i could have been last night but i didnt, i could tomorrow night but im not..its one night out of 3!...so atleast thats some kind of progress ok! whether you wanna think so or believe it or what but to me it is....and even you calling me sick or telling me hes going to leave me is going to wreck this weekend for me....hes sleeping here tonight....we're going to have an awesome time together...i may be drunk but it doesnt even matter, i get to be with him and thats all that matters....

 

i didnt call u sick or say he'll leave you..i meant the situation is sick..& he said hed leave yyou over your drinking, & then wants to drink with you, thats called enabling
progress, hmm maybe, if one day led to another & led to another, you mafdde it 2 days, so why not go for 3? thats progress.. giving up after 2 is failure.. going one more day, then another & another..thats real progress

 

Hey! You remind me off my sister when she was your age

She's 27 still living with the parents and is HIV poitive

 

well it is drama filled..why?..because my life has so god damn much drama that its unbelievable..i cant take all this drama anymore..its way too much..i mean something happens like once a week..oh well..i've gotten pretty good with dealing with it..but i dunno how long imma last with this....i dont know if this is all what i actually feel or if its the alcohol i have in me talking but either way just yah...but thats about it...later

 

lil miss. have you noticed how many people are reading this thread???...ALOT...why??? because sooo many people have the same issues you are dealing with! You are helping many people now just talking about your struggles, so thank you for your bravery and honesty. i just want you to know that i have a 14, (soon to be 15) year old daughter named molly and even though i don't know you, i really do care about your health and well being. Please re-read the post about the cosmic struggles and issues your birthday energies contain. You can overcome anything if you understand what you are dealing with. It is your life mission to live through this and i believe you are going to make it. i am praying for you, (as in visualizing you gaining mastery of your own emotions and intelligence.) If you put your boundless energies into considering some methods of higher thinking, i really believe you are going to be extremely powerful in influencing others to take positive control of their lives too.
Ok check this out...i just looked up the year of your birth in Gary's other book, The Secret Language Of Destiny..it turns out that you and my daughter are on the same karmic path: THe Way OF Electricity. I will type the first few paragraphs for you...please, get these books and use them as a way to begin to understand your purpose here on earth. (For the love of god, just do it!)
The Way Of Electricity~ October 2, 1990- February 19, 1991 Cancer-Leo Cusp to Capricorn- Aquarius Cusp
Serving in a capacity akin to a lightening rod, those on the way of Electricity are here to bring crackling energy down form the heavens, to ground it in the here and now, and in so doing, to generate a kind of excitement and enthusiam that will infect all those who come in contact with them. Whether serving as a public icon for their time or as a behind-the-scenes instigator, those on the Way Of Electricity will always make their influence felt.These individuals have been brought into this life to stir things up, serving as a catalyst to impart new ideas, modes of thought, or revolutionary concepts to their society, whether for good or ill. Movers and shakers, these people lend spice and verve to any family gathering and other social events...

ok, otter here...holy shit young lady, it states that excessive emotional burnout is highly possible due to drugs and alcohol if you do not get EMOTIONAL stability. You need peace and quiet, though you crave excitement. A tendency to be a shit disturber is pronounced. And guess who you share this path with?? ELVIS AND EINSTEIN!!! (Oh, and Molly, my dramatic and crackling with energy daughter.)
So... there is some more insight for you to contemplate. You can see how your birthday energy and your life path energy all fit together.We live in a miraculous, amazingly synergistic universe. You are creating this *drama* (getting wasted and such) so that you can formulate your life mission... knowing and understanding what you DO NOT WANT at a very early age, so that you can choose with full awareness of what you are really all about. There is nothing *wrong* with you, but you are facing a crossroad here. Because you have chosen to share this with the world, it is very promising that you will harness this power you embody and become an icon for yourself, your friends and family by demonstrating what you are really capable of. Find some sane people you can relate to somewhere and chill out and gather your strength. Here is Gary's wisdom for people on this path:
Engage in physical routines to stay in balance. Work to build communication pathways to those you love. Pursue a spiritual path with rituals and routines that calm the mind.
let me know what you think about this.
love, otter

 

omg, i just went to your web site. and am not surprised, but really sad that your world appears to be so dark. But you are a really gifted writer! (And beautiful!) "Reading between the lines", the story and poetry of course tell all.... (selectively sharing what may be aspects of your own life.) *shocking and disturbing*, they describe a world of intense pain so many young people experience everyday, with suffering, self mutilation, and abuse. I am so sorry that you have had to go through this kind of stuff, but again, it seems to be part of the building materials you need to fulfill your destiny as one who can describe this to the world, and to help others. The Day Of the Selective Exibitionist, on The Way OF Electricity. See how it all fits together???
So, now what? What is your next story going to be? You can't stay stuck there. You obviously want to live and thrive..You have more stories to tell! If your family life is as dysfunctional as it sounds from your poetry, you need to get out of there and live somewhere safe and nurturing. Can you possibly go stay with friends families or relatives? Even a cool foster family? There has to be a way to make serious changes. And soon. You have to be safe to do your work!!!.

 

I usually partake about once a week or once every two weeks, but this weekend happened to be Margarita Fest at my house--3 nights of Jose Cuervo, football and HipForums.

 

haha, that sounds like fun!

i have no advice for the girl, seriously i dont, i dont want to meddle in other people's business....

 

yeah, it's aot of advice. but meddle shmedle, that's what the forums bring out in people when it's real concern. So lets hear from you brothers and sisters out there...

 

well this is a first in like 2 months..a friday night without drinking..fucking christ whats wrong with this picture? well it might not seem like anything to you but when i add the next part you'll see the wrongness of it all lol..not only am i not drinking but i have a full 26'er of vodka in my room, not opened, and im not drinking..its craziness..i want to so bad though..but i will restrain myself because i know that i can go the weekend without drinking..well actually that wont work this weekend because its thanksgiving and im gonna have a shit load to drink with my family on sunday lol but other than that my weekend will be spent quite sober..so thumbs up to me!(Y)

 

Hahahaha...

I'm confused too.

 

lol i live in canada haha..so this weekend is thanksgiving...its not thanksgiving until like november in the U.S. though...hahah..i hope you guys arent like confused anymore lol..sorry about that hah

 

good jod jen..your doing great..i'm proud of ya..
i know its hard, but you'll get through it

maybe u should gve that bottle away to 1 of your freinds or something..& for thankgivin u dont gotta drink a shitload..just like 1/2 a glass of wine..& if u feel like u cant stop at 1/2 a glass... then just dont drink at all

 

I have spent years working with people who have alcohol problems. They all drink for a reason and the drinking is a kind of self-medication. Sometimes knowing the reason helps sometimes it does not. However, what it comes down to is that they have to come to a place were they like themselves enough to quit drinking.
About 20% of any population has an addictive personality. They are at risk; about 5% of any population is lost to substance abuse. That number is the same no matter if you look at alcoholics in the US, opium smokers in China or gin drinkers in London in the 1800. If you are part of the 20%, you have one chance in four of losing your life to what ever you are using.
The only cure is to stop. It does not matter how you stop. People use AA, New Age beliefs, power of positive thinking, or make up their own system. Does not matter you have to stop using - not for your boyfriend, not for your friends, not for God, but for you. That requires you to think of yourself as someone worth saving.
Start by getting rid of the miss ugly trip. You are a person - nothing more and nothing less. That is enough because you, I, and everyone who reads this are one of a kind. You cannot be replaced and the world cannot afford to lose you. Hell, you might turn out to be the person who gets us all out of the current mess. Several people on this board seem to like you. I am prepared to like you. But first of all, you must like yourself. FIND a reason to like yourself. Then and only then can you do things for yourself.

 

think that just shows how many folks want ya to quit jen.. ya got alot of people caring about ya..use that as strength

 

woohoo to a weekend without drinking!..its so gonna happen this time!!..i've made it a whole friday night without anything! how amazing is that?!!..yah thats right a friday night without doing fuck all!!!!!!...and i will make it the rest of the weekend and then on tuesday i will celebrate making it through a weekend without drinking by getting drunk!!!..aw i cant wait till tuesday lol..gotta find some alcohol first..well actually i got 20 bucks now and all i need is like another 40 bucks by tuesday..aw pff that wont be hard im sure lol..my mom loves me, i'll be able to get the money im sure!...and i've made it all week without drinking!..well actually i cant say that because i did have a mix of pepsi and vodka on wednesday but it was only a water bottle full and it wasnt even full! haha..but whatever..hopefully i'll be able to make it through the weekend..i mean if i can do that im just proving that i rock and dont have a problem!...and to cooloner, i dont want attention, the last i want it attention drawn to myself!..i hate when im the center of attention, and all that crap..i cant stand it..im just like that..i hate when people stare at me, i hate when anyone looks at me for more than like 3 seconds, and i dont even like when someone comes in that 3 foot personal space cirlce!!..it just bothers me completely!!...i can put up with it from certain people, like my boyfriend and my mom and my brother and maybe one or two of my friends, but thats it..i just dont like when anyone comes close to me, or whatever...its really uncomfortable....so yah anyways umm maybe i dont have a problem, i dont think i do, but once i start really thinking about it or talking about it then it kinda makes me wanna change my mind when i really dont think that i do...just because i drink on the weekends doesnt mean im an alcoholic..and it doesnt matter whether i can or cant remember what happens on those weekends..like i dont care, because i know i have soo much fun!..even if im passed out at 9 o'clock some nights! haha..but oh well..thats about it..i think maybe i'll stop posting, seeing as its looking like im "drawing more attention to myself" even though thats not my intentions..its just a vent to make me feel better...so yah im gonna see if i can have fun this weekend..hopefully i will..but anyways i gotta get something to eat then bed, i havent eatten barely anything all day lol im starved! but then again what else is new? i dont eat much ever and im always hungry haha..oh well, it'll pay off when im no longer FAT!!!..ewwwy my fat*tear*lmao..ok now im really done lol..bye xoxox

 

I think personally that if you're going to make an obvious change regarding your drinking habits, you should just remove yourself from the situation entirely. Think about it this way: If you had to count the good times you've had drinking and those are pluses, and the bad times you've had drinking are minuses, how negative are you?

I'm young too and I have had a tendency to binge drink myself into oblivion [a lot of painful memories there] but I basically removed myself from those around me that I felt were contributing, like one close friend who started me drinking and one who always had a source. Those relationships I had were abusive and unhealthy, so I spent some time alone questioning myself and finally became close friends with girls now who drink moderately but have more self-respect than that. I have a lot of good friends now who I have healthy, happy, satisfying relationships with. You have to go all-out if you don't want to pass out, in my opinion.

And just a note- if you think you have an alcoholism problem that needs to be resolved, why are you posting on a web site with little more than strangers? If your problem is that bad, you need to talk to the people around you in the flesh, not those of us like myself who can only give moderate counseling.