About Me

BTW, on the car thing. Around late last year, I started contemplating legal actions. And by the time everyone in my life should have known that, they were still talking about it. Like they wanted me to know they were still thinking about taking my car away. Then like within the last couple of months, I took more direct legal action. Everyone in life knows about that by now, I know. And yet even after I did that, people still brought up the subject, like they were still thinking about it. Everyone agrees I'm an excellent driver. And they can't even tell me why all that nonsense is still going on. But that's the last I heard on that subject.

Also, everyone knows that it would dangerous to live where I do without a car. Everyone should know that by now, or that was the reason why I didn't want them to take my car away, because I've told everyone by now. And yet as far as I know, that stupidity is still going on.

 

More on the local police. There was another incident involving the police that happened shortly before my father died in 2011, perhaps a couple of years before, right after my uncle died in 2006. My father and I were eating out late at night. We found a restaurant in south of my home. A coney island style restaurant. We were drawn to it because we noticed the police ate there late at night too. One time we were there, late at night. And a group of policemen were eating at a table not too far away. They were apparently annoyed. Finally one policeman, a young man I remember, sat away from the table on the edge of his seat staring in our direction with a wide knowing grin on his face. He obviously didn't want my father and I to eat there anymore. So we never returned after that.

As I just said I always thought the police were there to protect me. They're there to protect everyone, aren't they? But I guess they didn't see it that way.

 

I guess I should say this at least once. As I said, I think I am somewhere in the normal range intellectually. I also think I may have the wrong status legally that way. But, if anyone, including the police, don't agree with the law in Michigan that says certain groups should be allowed to drive, tough. If you disagree with the law, talk to your representative in Lansing. But you don't take the law into your own hands. Especially, in the case of police, when you are on duty.

 

I was also going to say, and I am just speaking generally when I say this. But I did discuss this with my doctor. When someone keeps doing the same inappropriate thing over and over again. Even after they've been warned, even when they know the harm they are doing and the danger they put you in. The solution is stronger penalties. And secrecy. If people are using the secrecy in anyone's life to hide they actions, the solution is the same. Stronger penalties. So they can't hide what they do in the future too. Those are just my general views on the subject.

Back to my life. As I said, I think everyone who should be informed about my situation is. At least as far I know. No one has gotten back to me yet. And the matter is largely out of my hands now.

 

Another thing that might make me sound dumber than I am, is when I was still in GS, the teachers told me that some of the students were complaining that they didn't like it when I used big words. So for most of my adult life I avoided it. And even tried to appear dumb at times, believe it or not. I still don't know what that is about. People still sometimes act annoyed when I use big words. I even had an uncle who did that once for some reason. I thought it was because they thought I was bragging about my intelligence. And people do sometimes act annoyed when I talk about something I know or quote a scientist or philosopher.

Also, the teachers eventually confided in me it was at least partly because some kids in GS were complaining it sounded too gay to them. I did go to Catholic GS and HS. RC schools are a little more conservative. But it still doesn't make any sense why I was told it was wrong to just use big words.

 

You know it's really funny in my life. People had no problems exploiting me and violating my rights. People who were or at least claimed to be decent people, normal at least. Then I got a whole bunch of people involved. And now they're miffed.

You know all you other decent people out there. Don't do anything you would want a lot of people to know about.

 

I don't think I will go too much into this one. But actually the mental health profession is as much to blame for my problems as the police I guess. They often told me they thought I was hiding something. And like the police, they were onto me. Starting after the 8th grade, as I've said.

I am good person. I had nothing to hide. And I still don't know what the heck they were talking about. One time I was with other people. And they told us they wanted us to tell them our secrets. We were there to be helped. Not to reveal our "secrets". There were other people there. So that one may have not even been directed at me.

But that's the problem with mental health in this country. It's too weaponized, IOW used to find criminality. Police there are for that. Mental health workers should only be there to help.

 

Yeah, the mental health community. As I said, I won't go into too much detail. But I attempted suicide in April of 2004. We needn't get into the reasons. But I mean, I don't suffer from depressions, for example. Anyways, it wasn't my fault. But you know. The staff the hospital I went to, and in particular the psych ward I had a brief stay, could have been nicer. I'll leave that one at that.

But in the psych ward, they raised my Olanzapine, which I think is all I needed. I can't change people around me. At least that's not my job. But the Olanzapine helped me deal with situations in my life.

 

Just talking in general, when it comes to legal remedies, including criminal, people like judges, prosecutors and attorneys general have broad discretion. And in cases like family matters, they only get involved if they absolutely have to. But sometimes you have no choice but to take some kind of legal action. And when you do, you know you've done right thing, for the reasons I just gave.

And if the people involved in the case, including the family, police and whoever, do something wrong, and there's secrecy involved. As there often is with mental health, sealed court records and even things like police investigations, etc. my solution is simple. There should be harsher penalties involved. Because people can sometimes use secrecy in those situations to get away with things and hide what they're doing. Most people don't, I know. But if they do, that's the solution. Harsher penalties. And this is also to protect people in the future in situations like that too.

Yeah, I've talked to a lot of people. And they all know this is how I feel about this now. As I said, I am not saying this any of this necessarily has to do with my case.

 

Yeah, all the seemingly weird things that happened all my life. You know, believe it or not, there might be a reason for all of it. I am talking to my doctor about that now. And why did people in my life do things they sure should have known would make me desperate? Just saying. I'm talking to my doctor about that too. I'm talking to my doctor about everything now.

 

On the driving thing. As I said, I am an excellent driver, with an excellent record. I have all the skills to drive, I actually think I'm better than most. And yet police and paramedics in the past seemed to think I shouldn't be driving. Not for anything I did. They never could go into the reason why.

And you know. I have good insurance. I've always had the best doctors, went to the best schools and had the best insurance. My driver's license has never lapsed. My license plate and registration have always been up to date. And you know, sadly were I live that often isn't the case. People drive around with no insurance and banged up cars. Driving in car with dents and things like tail lights missing is illegal in Michigan. But they can't afford to fix it, so they don't. I've never done that. A lady in an intersection near my home drove into me, in 2017 I believe. She was in the middle turn lane and the light was green for me. She was a young lady, and she didn't even see me. She destroyed my door and side mirror. But I got it repaired in like three days. If I get any dint or dent on my car, I get it fixed immediately. Frankly the only thing I don't do is wash my car. But that's another story.

But if the police and ambulance personnel where I live don't think people with minor mental problems should be driving, they shouldn't take matters into their own hands. They should talk it over with their state representative.

 

More on my intellectual status. People in my neighborhood seem to think I am stupid. Not just average stupid, but incredibly stupid. Like I don't know my ABC's and can't tie my own shoes. Is it the way I look? I'm beginning to think maybe not. I think someone might have told them something. I don't know anymore.

I had this beggar who used to come to my front door. And he thought he could fool me into thinking he did my snow. He's gone. But sometimes I just did my own snow. Like few seconds earlier. I'm serious. I just put the shovel away behind my front door. And he'd arrive in my driveway. Sometimes he walked, sometimes he rode a bike and sometimes someone drove him there. And he'd try to take credit for doing my snow that way. I was confused at the time. Why would I not know who did my snow? I could tell, like many people I meet, he thought I was mentally deficient. But even a mentally deficient person would know who did their snow. Wouldn't they? I was trying figure out what else he thought was wrong with me. Mental deficiency and what? Face blindness? Pattern recognition failure? I was thinking about this recently. Maybe he thought one of my neighbors was helping me out. And I just didn't know which. But someone must have told him something. What do you think?

One time I was in a store in my neighborhood. And I asked this lady cop a question. She smiled and said, well I'm a police officer. I work as a security guard. Her name tag clearly said sergeant. Plus even if she thought I was mentally deficient and couldn't read, wouldn't a mentally deficient person recognize a policeman's uniform? It's all very odd. People in my neighborhood have been told something false about me. Possibly the police too. What do you think?

I think it relates to my legal status. And I think my psychiatrist may, just may, have had something do with this. He is sometimes very unprofessional. I thought that in 1992 when I first met him. He once told me he didn't care who I saw after he retired. Well, my therapist till 2022 said. That be could illegal. A psychiatrist has to make sure his patient has a doctor to see after him. In my case certainly at least to sign the social security disability forms and other important legal documents. And I would add. Certainly if I hold status of someone under guardianship with the mental age of a three year old who can't tie their shoes.

 

Your neighbors are ignorant. We know from your posts that you're exceptionally intelligent, thoughtful, well-educated and analytical. You've mentioned that you have some medical problems like CP and SPD which they might be misinterpreting as signs of low intelligence.