A final journey: hazy recolections of a triumphant struggle of wills

Yeah, really it's just one more thing on the "No" list. lol, with everything else that's actually going on in my life I don't see any point worrying about a bad dream. It's just nonsense.

 

everyone is gonna have a different feeling about the salvia experience. for me, it's kind of a metaphor for what happens after we die. for what we really are, or at least for what we once were and what we're going to be for the vast majority of the existence.

right now, we're a complex, organized and self-determined system. but after we die, we're going to be disassembled and reintegrated into entities that our ego is not a part of. we'll be again small portions of everything, and at the same time we'll be nothing. no ego. no life. nothing to worry about, nothing to cheer about. just nothingness. the difference i see in salvia is that you pass through this without losing your awareness, but the overall feeling is very similar to this "death proccess" i'm referring to.

salvia made my fear of death rise up. for me this is far more profound than just a realistic bad dream, and being permanently terrified by the feelings you have in a breakthrough is anything but overestimating the experience.

 

about the superstitious entities...i was only describing what it felt like during the experience. i don't really think that there is a book-machine somewhere that controls which of the 1000s of realities we get to see.

but i DO believe that it is a fact, that humans don't perceive the world as it truly is - whatever that is. we rely on our imperfect senses, and finite receptors. not to say that taking drugs automatically shows us the truth...but it makes you wonder...

NO.