7 months sober, anxiety over dreams

Hello...I decided to post on myself regarding some issues I have at 7 months sober to see if anyone can relate or help. I am 7 months clean from a 12 month heroin addiction, snorting/injecting. I really have been doing very well. I am lucky to have the support system I have. Recently, I have been having very very vivid dreams of using, and I will wake up feeling extremely anxious. Often, going to work or working out will totally remove my anxiety, but sometimes these thoughts stay with me. It's often hard for me to talk about with family and friends because I put them through complete hell and I don't want to do anything that would make them worry that I want to go back to using or am going to act on these cravings. Thats really not how I feel at all, Its just some of these dreams and resulting thoughts are really strange and take me back to such horrible times, it's hard for me to even post here on them. Can anyone relate? I have not spoken to my sponsor about them, we are still getting to know each other, but I plan on it...does anyone else have these at 7 months sober? Will they go away? They really scare the hell out of me sometimes. Thank u all.

 

Open up, get honest, talk to your sponsor. Secrets keep you sick.

I'm 8 months clean off 7 years of chronic ketamine abuse and 3 years of chronic heroin use. I do not experience these dreams though I have had a fixation with oxymorphone tablets over the past month but it's just an insane thought which i have to share and tell others about because it sounds much more tempting in my head, out loud it sounds insane i would want to take opiates again after multiple overdoses over the past 2 years.

 

Dreams are your subconscious' way of working out issues. Your subconscious mind may still be getting use to not using. Sometimes it just takes a while.

Most of all keep in mind that it was a big part of your life not to long ago so sometimes feeling urges are natural. You should talk to your family. Sure, they may worry and such... But think about how they would feel if they knew you were keeping this kind of secret. Besides, they are your family. If they were there with you through the worst of it they aren't going to look down on you just because of some dreams! They love you and their support will give you more strength than anything else in the world!

 

welcome