Ya, I didn't understand magic at all till I saw it. Really, it just all clicked when I saw it "thats how magic works, its all energy and you will the energy to do things". However, I don't think actually managed to do anything with it. Have you actually managed ot physically manifest something? I've since taken up the occasional act of trying to make a pen or cell phone move by telekinesis when I remember too. But haven't thus far managed to do anything.
You won't be able to move anything by telekinesis as long as YOU wish it, just because of fun or any other reason of YOURS. You will be able to do it when you don't ask for it, when it is needed for "biger picture", if you know what I mean. The God is not our toy, we are his toy!
Long time ago there was a thread that was very interesting, but it just stopped. Check here: http://www.hipforums.com/forums/showthread.php?p=3776266#post3776266 There, I attached my methafores to what I feel and they are similar to your methafors, but yet looking from another angle. Maybe it will help you redefine yours, as you have so many questions and maybe you are a bit confused what you really feel. I am not saying that all of it is just like that, but I tried to attach methafores to feelings as much as I could and as you said, it might be a bit confusing. Anyway, I hope it helps.
ya thats an interesting perspective of it, I felt it to be quite similar. Does it feel for you that when you walk around in typical daily life, the walls are almost transparent and there is some 'thing' behind it all in the background that just sort of governs everything you do, even what you say. That like, when you answer questions from people, it's not like you answer them its more like you just pay attention to whats behind the transparency and it has the answer? Do you always feel that way constantly?
Yes I do feel like that all the time, it is just intensity of that feeling that it is changing. It is not even that you are listening any more what people are saying, you get their thought or at least intention much before they said it, and than you just open your mouth and words come out. It is very difficult to describe it, but while I was thinking what I am going to say before, I had problem people understanding what I want to say, but like this, I am not thinking at all what I am going to say, it becames just automatic translator of your feelings or thoughts into the sentence, and even if you say something not "gramaticaly" correct, people understand you much more easy than before. It is specially noticable with you guys here on the forums, or with my friends that are tripping with me. It is less and less word conversation, it is more thought exchange, or just letting your self to vibrate freely without any distraction of what words are meaning. When I am reading what you wrote, it is not the words that I see,it is somehow "picture" of you and "picture of you feelings", if you know what I mean.
telekenisis: i did it ONCE in 33 years!!!! me & my x (who we called the wizard) were very high on shrooms at a party and we were messing around with magic stuff. at one point we both found ourselves staring at a spoon in an empty coffee mug. it was like we "knew" to look at the spoon then quicky look away-we did this with our eyes 2-3 times when suddenly the friggin spoon FLEW out of the cup really really fast as if someone flung it accross the room. we were trying it for fun but neither of us thought it woulkd ACTUALLY work. well it did--with a room full of witnesses. about 4-5 guys at the party got so scared they RAN out the door & never came back. i've tried it a million times since and its never worked. lol about magic....i'm a BIG BIG fan of it now. if i had my way i'd have an altar in every corner of our apartment!!! i tried to learn magic at first only to manifest weed. that was my big incentive. its never magically appeard in my hand or anthing...but its always come to me shortly after in miraculous ways. like once i was in the country...middle of nowhere, in the middle of the night with a buddy that was a magic friend...we were into the same stuff & often manifested things, meditated, discussed divinity together. we had smoked the last of our bud by the water and set down the pipe only to lose it. we scrambled on the ground (tall grass) for a long time no luck. the car was about 100 meters back. i did an instant prayer/spell to Bob Marley asking for intercession. within minutes my buddy heard "move the car back" so he did, with his lights on. sure as shit there is the pipe where the middle of the car would be. when we ran to pick it up we found it fully packed. what a GREAT stone. when weed comes to you in a miracle its never just a run-of-the-mill high...its holy shit talk to god kinda stone! basically i think magic is merely making a prayer request into an official demand....you know sometimes you think "it would be nice to have ...." but with a spell its more official. its like "look, i REALLY intend to have ..." give me some help!" and help always comes. the karmic nature of your request will intriugue an entity that vibrates similar. so if you are asking for something out of greed etc an dark entity will help you....but then i guarantee life gets shitty. but if you ask in love & true betterment of you & all...then its miracles! miracles! miracled! the universe has an unlimited amount!
One time, Autentique and I were coming back from South Carolina on a greyhound bus. I had to go down for a court session and ended up pleading guilty to a hit and run felony charge and I got my state parole release. Anyway, on the way down we stopped at a bar in Raleigh, NC and met a great soul working the bar who exchanged beer with us for free. So on the way back up, according to our schedule on the ticket, we were supposed to have a 30 minute layover in Raleigh. We got excited to be able to have enough time to go have another drink at the bar, this time we were going to bring along a poor man who we met on the bus and buy him an ale. So I was praying for several hours on the bus before we got there and got pretty high from my love for God. We get to the station in Raliegh and they told us we only had 5 minutes to use the bathroom or smoke before we got rolling again. So we decided not to run to the bar because it was very popular (so obviouly packed) and we would never make it in time. We got back on the bus feeling defeated and dissapointed and as we pulled out of the lot and back on the highway we accepted the fact that we werent going to be drinking at the bar. Anyway, soon as we got to the city limits, out of nowhere, without being called on the CB, the bus turns around on the highway and starts going back! We pulled right into the parking lot and parked, the driver announced that we had 5 more mintues. So we RAN to the bar, pushed through the massive crowd of people, found the same guy from before amongst at least 8 other bar tenders, slammed down a beer each. We then pushed back through the crowd, RAN down the 4 blocks back to the lot, jumped on the bust as it was pulling out, and thanked God for this fortunate turn of events. I realize drinking beer is not something you ask God for, and we did not ask. He just gave it to us. Om shanti and namaste family. -
The Flying Saucer , just last night I was telling this story, but of course everyone told me how that was just a coincidence.