=(

i reread some emails i wrote this guy over the past year. and i feel awful cause he means a ton to me and i can be such a bitch.


and when i get upset, i consider getting rid of my dreads. cause i dont want to work on them.

 

strange


same thing happens to me


that's why i think keepin'm will help things out


ifn' you're a-seein' what i'm sayin'

 

so heres a theory: if richie or i get rid of our dreadies, we've both reached depression.

 

things are said, and cant be unsaid, so you just gotta think about what you can do, as opposed to what you should have done

 

well he stopped talking to me after that. so i cant do much but try and look pretty when i pass him on the street.

 

I just don't get the point of dreads anymore... ahah.

 

well, no use getting upset about it now, eh?

just try an stay positive

 

i'm positive i'm a bitch sometimes.

like i told him the other week, the way i've treated him is my only regret in life.





on a happy note (dont want an all sad thread), counting crows are awesome.

 

me too mayn. and i dont even mean to be. it just comes out =/ i have the problem of taking my moods out on other people, even if they dont deserve it and/or mean a lot to me...


buuuuut dont get rid of your dreads!
you or richie or chris get rid of your dreads = heather has reached depression..

 

im keeping mine


and


that should be enough to keep everyone happy

 

oh, forever.

 

keepin' mine too
even if they are all weird



and feel nasty

 

aww

 

haha.. i'll keep them. i like it better that strangers assume i have something to sell them than that i go to church all the time. (funny how hair can change peoples minds about you..)

and i do that too. i hate it. thats why i was upset with myself. cause when i was rude to him, i was actually mad at myself for crap and i took it out on him cause ... he let me. i guess. i dont know.

 

Oh gosh, nice to know that at least I'm not the only one who does it.

 

does it?

 

It so does.

 

count crows

 

oh fine richie. understand his joke. i had to have him explain on msn. i'm so slow.

 

:H
don't you worry your poor underdeveloped, blonde-dreadlocked little head now maryanne

, i'm just jokin'