Menopause set in. Went 12 years + without any sex. Didn’t want another woman. Decided to go down the guy route because of hopefully less drama. Felt if I receive I should give. Enjoy it now and the guys reaction when they cum!
He and I would sit naked as nudists in my garage. Talks became sexual about our wives and their refraining from as they got older. He developed a hard on one day and I told him to feel free to relieve himself. As he did, I decided too to get my release. Through time we got more interested in playing together. Just wasn't often enough and now never
It's more like how my gay journey began... well, in college - we'd been out drinking and I was driving the group of us home... my girlfriend was in the back seat making out with one of the guys. my friend, Howard, was sitting next to me and asked me why I wasn't mad - I made light of it, and with each comment I made, he laughed, and squeezed my leg... and each time, he moved his hand up the inside of my leg. I dropped everyone off and he and I went off by ourselves and that was my first time ever experiencing sex with a man - a good friend, at that. It was the most natural experience and made me realize what I'd been pushing off was not some terrible sin. Unfortunately, it took me a long time to find balance and peace with the whole bi thing.
Summer after freshman year in college. Despite learning to jack off from my friend and jacking off with him basically daily for 3 or 4 years when I was younger, I didn't really think I was gay or bi. Had a few girlfriends in high school and was (still am) attracted to women. But I stayed in the college town where I went to school that summer and started to realize I was pretty much only fantasizing about dick when I jerked off, so figured I was at least open to it. I found an ad in a local paper's classified section for a gloryhole which was something I didn't totally understand, but there where enough clues in the add to tell me what it was. Started going there and it took several days before someone actually came in the other stall, but when he did (black guy), I just went for it and was immediately rock hard. The guy came in my mouth in less than 30 seconds and I blew my load almost immediately afterwards. Couldn't believe I did it, but definitely knew I wanted to do it again. That led to a lot of experimentation that summer including getting gang-banged a few times, but then I dated a girl for a few years after that kind of just compartmentalized it all I guess. Didn't think about it and didn't run into any of the random guys I hooked up with fortunately. Had off-and-on girlfriends since then, but I come back to it. Have a good situation now with a married guy who's wife is cool with it (doesn't participate) who I met just organically through another friend. He's kind of a manly dude, ex-military, you'd never think to look at him type, but he had been curious forever and there wasn't much guilt about sneaking around since it was all discussed openly in front of his wife and we're all friends. Just got lucky there and met the right kind of open-minded people. I get together with him at least twice a week. I bottom most of the time, but he does like taking it sometimes, too.
at least you were self-aware enough... I remember this, too - my focus during jack off times was often jocks I'd seen in the locker room in high school, but it never seemed to dawn on me that any other guys would also be into this. I thought I was an odd duck.
Most of my adult life I have had at least a curiosity towards men and even on occasion indulged those urges I had even though I was getting sex at home with my wife. I didn’t understand why I felt the way I did and felt guilty for having done it. So there were long periods of time between the times I met with men. Then menopause entered into the picture and I found myself on my own to seek sexual satisfaction. Having a woman on the side is just too complicated, I don’t want the drama it might invite. And once I waded into my bisexual journey I found I enjoy it. Men can be erotic and sensual also.
In my early 30's (i'm 52, male) I was straight as an arrow but, going through a dry spell with women. I would watch a lot of porn and go into chat rooms looking for cyber sex. Women in the straight chat rooms were very guarded. Women are just as flakey online as they are in person. So, I decided to check out the gay chat rooms. I figured it was full of other horny guys like myself. What's the harm in that? It was amazing. I finally found "my people." Everyone was open and honest about what they were interested in. I figured that we all wanted to get off, so, what does it matter who it's with. BUT, chatting with the guys lead me to imagine what they looked like. I wanted to see them naked (I was shocked in myself... why would I want to see another guy naked? I'm "straight" RIGHT???). While chatting, I would look at gay porn. I realized that I enjoyed seeing men naked and watching them cum. I finally started chatting with a guy in my town. We eventually moved over to AOL Instant Messenger to chat (that's how long ago this was). We would talk about our interests (he was bi) and we would role play. This went on for a while until I got the nerve to invite him over. He knew that it was the first time that I would be with a guy, so, he was really low pressure about it. I'm an exhibitionist, so, when he got to my place I wanted him to watch me shower (I have a clear shower curtain). We then went to the living room to watch some porn. We sat apart, but, we quickly lost interest in the porn and were focused on each other. I really wanted to feel his cock, so I moved next to him and we mutually stroked each other. Without asking, he just goes down on me. I was feeling SOO good, that I wasn't going to make him stop. He made me cum and it felt amazing. I immediately had the typical shame and regret. We met a couple of other times and the shame and regret would always follow. As the years went on, I would find other guys to play with and I become more comfortable with my interests and I can admit to myself that I like being with men as much as women.
My journey started a long time ago. I was never really good at talking girls out of their clothes so I turned to the internet and I found that there was a lot of information on ways to get really good orgasms. One day I read about guys tasting their cum and after some hesitation I tried it. I got pretty good at cumming a little without losing my libido so I could cum again with cum in my mouth. Of course that led to me playing with my back side and one day it was brought to my attention I might enjoy replacing my cum/fingers/toy with the real thing. It was a really confusing time for a lot of years honestly. I was watching bi/gay porn fantasizing about having sex with a guy and after I had cum I’d be in denial….was I gay and denying. I’d mostly try to block everything out not actually deal with it. Occasionally I would have a conversation with myself and tell myself if I was gay to just be ok with it but it just wasn’t something I was. One day I finally learned there’s a lot of guys like myself. I’m not gay. I’m probably not straight but the term bisexual kinda means I like both men and women. I didn’t want to be a label and I didn’t/don’t want one. Women are the best. Occasionally I like sex with a guy or at least watch gay porn and have a good fantasy. If I wasn’t married I would likely have a lot of bi experiences. I don’t have a lot of inhibitions now. I want to bottom, on my back and kiss. I’d like a mmf threesome and a mmm threesome. That’s my journey. It’s been fun and a little/lot terrifying all at the same time.
Does your wife understand your desires? Are you just looking for simple satisfaction? When she couldn't our friend helped me. What would her suggestion be?
I keep waiting for the opportunity to talk with some of my friends, carefully, but try to get it going.
Very similar here to what you wrote! I wondered was I secretly gay & didn't know it, because of some of my desires, and what articles said at the time(and now) that most women refuse to be with a man who's ever been with men? But I never had any romantic desires for men, just sexual and male bonding now and then. I still wonder if women could subconsciously tell I had some bi interests and it steered them away from me sexually or romantically? I never had a true GF until after graduating later than most with some health issues affecting self confidence. If I had had a GF and been getting laid, I wouldn't have had time or energy to think about sex with men. But it wouldn't vanish. The first GF was bi, told me the couple we went to a concert to, her coworker's husband liked for his wife to peg him. I do wish I would have told that GF I was game to try it, though?! That could have led to a foursome with them,but I was instead worried she'd turn against me, as she had volunteered at an AIDS hospice at the time, out of fear of me being bi, catching it and passing to her. But strangely rarely had thoughts of a real cock inside me? Partly fear of HIV, as I'd had condoms break when on my cock. Now, as you, I'd love an MMF, especially DVP feeling another's man's cock next to mine in the same pussy! Sex with my wife is non existent. And even an MMM with a couple, and consider trying being a bottom,but only with someone gentle.
I hear you on the gentle part.... Lol. I grew up with the feminine feeling, and even during sex with GF, thought in my mind, I was her.... But my life, put me in the scene of masculinity. Always, had to play the serious Type A. But, my mine still wunders to the other. Always, looking to make that connection, but at my age, the picking is little. Would love to find a neighbor to play. Had sex with my wife last night, but there again, my mind wunders....
I was twenty and had very little experience, my girlfriend, also twenty had lots of experience including with other women. I was the luckiest guy with a girlfriend like that. Then she asked about a threesome with another guy. I tensed up but agreed because I was afraid to lose her. I didn't know what to expect, but she was very sexual with the other women, would she want the same from me, to do something sexual with him? Yes, as it turned out. After watching her play with him, she wanted me to hold his penis, still wet from her mouth. Before long we were stroking each other, then she offered his cock for me to suck. "You know how much I like doing this! Why wouldn't it be fun for you?" So I gave in and had a great time!
My wife and I also fantasize about a MMF with her boyfriend, so yes, that would imply bisexual action. Her #1 fantasy (and a huge one for me too) is DVP (double vaginal penetration). I definitely wouldn't mind feeling his cock against mine while we were both deep inside her. Hell, I wouldn't mind licking and sucking her juices off him either. I know from her showing me pics, videos and watching (in person) her sucking his dick that he's about 8.5"c and THICK. It's really nice and I certainly wouldn't mind sharing it with her.
I've introduced guys because one thing led to another and, sometimes, I never saw it coming. You bond with a guy as friends and then it gets to be more than that and... dicks are being sucked and how did we get here? One such friend had been helping me with a project at home and we both got prety damned dirty getting it done. I told him that he could shower and he's in the shower and I hear him calling me; I go see what he wants and he says that since he was naked, he wouldn't object if I were to take advantage of his ass being all soapy and slippery and... okay, where did this come from? As far as I know, it's as straight as a laser beam! I'm screwing him because, um, all that hard work had made me quite horny, and he's telling me that he's been wanting this ever since we met - and I had no idea or clue but one thing led to another and I've learned to never discount this.
@KDaddy23 this story does amaze me. Literally, I have NEVER had anything remotely close to this happening to me, other than my very first gay experience with my friend when I was in college... I've told that story before. Since then, I've had some straight friends that I would give my eye teeth to get naked with, and they knew I was not straight... but I didn't cross that line out of respect for them... but I would suspect if they really wanted it, they would have made a move on me. Dog gone it...
You just gotta be in the right place at the right time with the right guy... and I had a knack for it. It was like the guys I thought might be down with it... weren't and the last guy I would ever suspect would be down with it is seriously down with it and confesses to having the hots for me. Like you, I never crossed that line with guys who I'd give anything to give a blowjob to but if they ever wanted it, I wouldn't hesitate for a moment and, yeah, one thing leads to another. I'm just lucky like that.
