This Is Spinal Chat..

Sit down Mary they don't know what they're talking about
Sit down Mary it's only make believe
Sit down Marry don't say those things you're screaming out
It was me, it was me.

It was me they saw in the liquor store that night
It was me with a gun on that cashier
When it went of it was me who took flight
And it was my getaway car they saw disappear

So blame me, if a crime's been done
If they need a reason I'm the one.
Blame me.

Yes sir I left my wife Mary and the kids
Yes sir I was a touch out of control
Well I drugged and drank and gambled oh yes sir I did
Until there was no money to send home

So blame me, if a crime's been done
If you need a reason I'm the one
Blame me.

Now what's that you say, sir, there were witnesses?
Standing in the shadows that night?
And that hold up man running from the liquor store,
They all say she looked exactly like my wife?

Sit down Mary! They don't know what they're talking about
Sit down Mary! It's only make believe
Sit down Mary! Don't say those things you're screaming out
It was me, it was me, it was me...
So blame me, if a crime's been done
If you need a reason I'm the one.
Blame me

 

yo yo in the house
what up niggas
yo yo
hit it

repeat 100 times with autotune its a 1# hit..

 

gift exchange, like a secret santa, just that its not limited to your office, class, or congregation. im considering participating in one, but the project for awesome is goingto need nerdfighter art donations too, so im not sure what i should commit to.

i notice that when inebriated, my vocabulary is still good, my spelling ok, but my typing is shit. i have to go back and reread everything. geez. like, i can make a bottle and change and rock and carry my baby (who is passed out with a bottle on the couch. go figure) with no problem, but i have to double check my spelling? ugh. bogus man.

why, do you ask, am i inebriated enough to affect (effect? i cant remember) my spelling?
because in the last 24 hours (from now, 11:45 pm MST) i have
settled in a baby, got to bed by about 2:30
woke with baby, made fresh bottle (by the light of the stove clock) (carrying him through the house so he could see that no, really, everyone is asleep and the lights are off) settled him back down (by about 4:30)
got up @ 6 am, woke up 10 year old (who ACTUALLY got up RIGHT AWAY! and even had time to play a FB cross stitch game) (napping in 10 minute increments until)
7 am walk him and neighbor kids to bus stop.
back in bed around 7:30 (because, im SUPPOSED to sleep when the baby sleeps, right? RIGHT?)

up at 10:30 (before baby is fully conscious) start picking up living room. pull up dog peed-on rug, sweep floor. clear dishes off counters. clear obvious booze (mom supposed to some over) make coffee, ready before 11:15. when i wake up hubby. as hes having coffee, i tell him that im rearranging the living room ("today, now?" yes. yes now. hopefully before the little dude graces us with his presence) get the floor reasonably cleaned up( i need a new mop, its on my list)
success.
spread out the new "outdoor" rug.
baby wakes up! breakfast bottle. i sort his toys. wooden blocks, mega blocks, toy food/ kitchen stuff, stuffed animals, books and assorted other toys.
do laundry, i think i did 2 full loads today, start to finish (and honestly, the 10 year olds stuff is in there now, at nearly midnight, and he needs pants because it will be chilly tomorrow, AND its picture day, so he has to look decent. never did get around to that haircut. screw it, i dont care. he never looks "good" in school pictures anyway)

mom cancels, her whole day ran late (she takes the bus) so shes simplifying by skipping her fisit and heading straight home (ok, fine, no problem. seriously just grateful to know what the plan is and when it changes. my mom knows me at least)
then the appt (early intervention for the baby) thats scheduled for tomorrow gets rescheduled for next week (ok, fine, no problem, 11:30 is probably better than 9 am anyway)

so there i am, approaching baby naptime, up to my asshole in started tasks and "making myself" do chores. i put together the baby's first ride-on, gift from his birthday. did everything except hammering in the axles (after awaking, and having the rest of the afternoon, he likes it!) and also dismantled one of the baby bouncers, because they take up SO much space, and he really has gotten far too big for them to be safe

at this point im burnt out. dont wanna dont wanna dont wanna. but have to. leftovers for dinner (PB&J for the baby) finally getting on the computer to do my puttering around.

im not sure how many "nips" from the bottle of Jack Daniels on the counter that ive had. enough, i think, at this point. safe to say. and im pleased with what ive gotten done today. but all i see is what i still need/ want to get done. i even searched for furniture that looked reasonable for our space/ changes. thats tedious stuff. then the baby hit the button to restart the computer.

so all the stuff i did, and all the frustrations i encountered, have led me to be inebriated this evening. not blotto, not drunk. not a danger to myself or others. but affected enough to think "fuck! how do people function day to day, 24/7 in this state? i know they do it, functioning alcoholism is quite popular"

and soon, hubby will be home, we can have a smoke, maybe, maybe watch a show, the baby is currently "napping" (will wake up, and go back down hopefully before 3 am.( like, thats my ideal now, is just please be down for the night by 3)

and i will be awake again at 6, mountain standard time. to do a different version of the same shit tomorrow.

did i eat today? no. i had coffee, and then later, jack daniels. and then more jack daniels....

this has been a rough one. not for peopley stresses, which is normally the case, but just the amount of stuff to get done, that got done (amazing) and the still yet to be done, which is a pile of rabbits, fucking and reproducing all over the goddamn place.

so, in summation... WOOOOOO! alcohol! i did stuff! i adulted today!

and also, "what do you mean tomorrows a WEDNESDAY? seriously? fuuuuck"

(ps, i also cleaned out a particularly clogged pipe. its one of my favored glass ones, now that i have broken the other go-to glass pieces. always something, always something.)

 

There's this very angry bird across the street who's been swooping on me and the dog. It doesn't swoop if the dog isn't around but for whatever reason he's coming after us now. Bit late in the season for that shit I thought?

Anyway it sits in a tree, then swoops to another or my roof. I got my slingshot but kids across the road came out to play and I don't want to be caught taking a bird out but as far as I'm concerned, he attacks us on OUR property and he's not getting away with it. I use light marbles, but I expect they'll either wind him bad and crack some cartilage or if I get him right in the face, I'll be the last thing that beady eyed cocksucker ever saw! And the look the thing gives. With its eyes. Not the eyes of a crow, they are my friends but this thing isn't my friend. -.-

 

settle down

both of you

 

...so glad i didnt have to raise any kids

 

marbles arent good for windows and neighbours cars


better to use a tennis racket

 

Mothers love that is a 130 line post on my telephone LOL I hope everything worked out for you

 

A squirt gun… One of those super soakers are good to scare off animals like neighbours cats

 

i just use the pressure washer.. got rid of that cat bird that way. I tried firecracker, it scared all the other birds away but the cat bird.. thats when I used my noggin..

 

I just use part of the hose from my pressure washer wand to replace the faulty fuel line on my lawn tractor it fit perfectly

 

keep an eye on it

if its not compatible with fuel its going to melt down and plug up the carb

 

Did it have the two periods at the end?

 

Well my marble will be shot up and it'll come down... somewhere far away from me... IF I miss. I'm not going to aim at houses I'm just going to get underneath it and shoot. It'll hit a roof if anything, should be fine. Probably more likely to whack me in the face once I nail the bastard.

 

right down on a ranger windshield...or hood

 

Not if it's covered by my enclosed car port.

 

lol. sorry about that.
Oz actually slept through this morning. hoping everything balances out soon.
just busy all the time. today has been good so far.

 

Oil & filter changed and air filter cleaned in the HHR... Finally.

 

i have to do mine soon...supposed to have 0w40 synthetic diesel oil year round (turbo diesel) but i went with much cheaper 15w40 conventional for the summer

 

I change mine once a year as per factory specs for synth... I went over by a month and a half but the dash readout still said 22% life left. I just don't like pushing it.