Tension

Talking to people refines your ability to communicate. I have learned I think how to communicate better. One of the problems I've encountered in being succinct enough to be understood is not knowing what exactly it is that people aren't relating to. People don't ask enough questions so I can't really tell where they are at or where I am at in relation. If there is no feedback I can't tell where I go wrong.

 

I'm not sure we are energetically separated in that fashion. I take you to mean outside the body, but energetically we are not contained by the body but we localize or orient ourselves in this fashion. There are many perspectives we entertain that lead only to perpetual contention. While it appears to come from other people in the group, other people is a level of self identification.

 

Well, when you are subject to group pressure this identification of others seems already to have happened. So I guess that for the sake of convenience I handled the argument as if there is a group with one person being pressured by a bunch of others

 

I understand your argument. That it already happened is the telling event.

 

My experience is that such pressure is felt more keenly when you are younger. I just tend to hang out with people I've known for years these days, and there's no pressure really. But when I was a teenager, I'm sure I did a lot of foolish things just to be in the crowd. Also in my 20s I was very influenced by my friends, and I did feel pressure to conform to certain sub cultural 'norms', which looking back from my perspective now was limiting.

I think I may have actually been pressured into trying certain drugs such as coke which I really had little interest in and would never have sought out on my own initiative. I had got my self into a position where it would have been impossible to 'just say no' without severe loss of face.

These days things are very different, and although I am open to suggestions, I won't do anything with which I'm not comfortable.

 

I've always had a very strong concsious that never allowed me to really misbehave. Even now my conscious will take over most of my thought process when it comes to something that could be perceived as bad, naughty or wrong.

I was teased relentlessly when I was in high school. I don't really know why, I guess I came in new, foreign with minimal English skills and was an easy target. German too, that always seems to cause some tension. But that wasn't my burden at all and I found friends and even my lover.

It seemed that when I was away from my friends who were actually 3 grades above me and it was all really because they were friends with this one girl I was friends with (my girlfriend) so I just slid into their group, but yeah, when I was away from them the teasing would start but nobody would say squat when I was with them.

This was a circle of friends that undoubted love to stir the pot and put shit on one another and that form of friendship really influenced me as you can probably see for yourselves I happen to be quite good a shit stirring people into throwing little Internet hissy fits, and I learned to manipulate a conversation when I was in high school just because I found it funny, as all the friends did, to put shit on one another. I think this was a great learning curve.

But my conscious would never really allow me to be bad. It thought of the consequences always. The only pranks I could really achieve were non emotional pranks. Pranks that would make you laugh but not pranks that ruined your clothes or books or stealing pens etc. just funny lol lolz.

I'm a weird person at the best of times and battle personality on the daily. I feel as if I know I am me, I am Jocelyn, but I struggle to know who that is. If that makes sense? Probs not.

I wasn't pressured into drugs and actually I was well into my twenties before trying them. I was in a mood of I didn't need to be stoned I was just high on my own with the faries and everyone could see that.

Haha, I really wouldn't have me any other way anyway. I. Am. The. Shit.

 

i've never actually played truth or dare. we would occasionally play never have i ever back in college, but i never saw it as being flirty or uncomfortable or putting people on the spot. it was mostly just basic drinking game strategy of trying to think of things that you haven't done and everyone else has, so everyone else has to drink. i suppose it just depends on who you're playing with.

along the same general lines though, i really can't stand the people who have to have drama. the last time i did go out to the bar, i had two completely different sets of drama people on either side of me. on one side was a guy whose girlfriend had said two words to a stranger, so the guy spent the entire night trying to start a fight over it. and on the other side was some woman who just kept screaming "aww hell naw, i ain't gone take naw her shit!!!" and various similar things all night for no apparent reason.