Destined To Be A Loner?

Thanks Logan

 

I'm sorry I missed this. Hopefully you're still here.

I'm so glad someone gets me. I'm not self-centered. I come here to offer help but no one else posts that much. I help people everyday. I wake up at 6 am but I go to bed at 1145 pm when I could go to bed at 10 pm because someone has to put my grandmother to bed every night. And I don't mind it because I love her. Next will be my mom. And if I get hitched, my husband or wife.

Anyhoo, you hit the nail on the head.

I think I'm still very naive and hold out hope that lots of different types of people can come together in perfect understanding. Pipe dream.

I'm enough introvert and weirdo to realize like you said that I should just be with likeminded people and to everyone else just be polite.

Sorry you lost your cat. I can be your friend until you find someone in person to connect with or even after that.

 

High hopes faint on a warm hearth stone
He travels the fastest who travels alone

 

Hi expanse, just checking up on you. Are you still meditating and socializing? Thanks again.

 

Thanks for checking up.
It's hard to socialize with my work schedule, but I try to do things when I can. As far as the meditation goes, it's hit and miss. I keep trying to get into a regular routine, but I keep slacking. Your asking just reminded to really get on it. I'm going to think of the best times that I can meditate, set reminders on my phone, and be persistent in doing the meditation when it's time.

How are things going with you? How are things going with socializing (and the thoughts that pop up)?

 

Hi I have a social job teaching English to adult immigrants part time and I have a bunch of other gigs, paid and unpaid, so you can say I'm around people a lot. Thoughts aren't really an issue because I'm distracted.

I would suggest you do a meditation guided clip from YouTube instead of just meditating with no guide.

 

That's awesome!

That's good advice. I'll check out what youtube has. I have other meditation audio too. It's all a matter of sticking with it.

 

Why the assumption meditation would be better than sleep?

Id rather have a nap than sitting uncomfortably with my legs crossed humming to myself.

Millions of years of evolution around sleep, body functions kick in, no use fighting that.

Have a nap, youll be more relaxed than any new age BS

 

To be fair, meditation isn't about relaxing at all. It's about being anchored in the Now.

 

Yeah it's so hard to find time to do it but I have to try to. Still socializing too.

 

Back to identifying as a loner for good. Can't handle people. Not good for my mental health.

But I won't isolate myself. I will stick work and do the amount of socializing required. But in my spare time, I want my alone time. That means cutting a lot of people out, including certain toxic relatives.

 

Meditating is good though. I love silence.

 

Fuck that.

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5zesUGSFsjk

 

Thanks Asmo! That was cute

Yeah I have a habit of feeling like I have to make a lifelong decision immediately lol.


You can't control the past or the future, so I just have to practice living in the Now.

xoxo

 

Oh hell. Sam, I offered to date you, but you turned me down instead.

 

You offered to date me?