Where Things Stand.

I was just talking to the guy at that new place about my living arrangements and how they may change some day. As I told him, I'd like to live here where I am as long as possible. It's a big house, all my stuff is already here where it belongs and the way I want it, and there's enough room for me and my cat. I always want to live that way, and with at least one cat. But like I pointed out, my situation is turning very different with the passage of time. I am no longer that young man in his late teens or twenties when you all started abusing me and treating me this way. I am becoming an old man now.

And so this is becoming the abuse, neglect and mistreatment of an old man. With all the legal and moral implications of that too, and what it means for others like me with the precedents it sets. Some people seem to tell me they think that is funny, my being mistreated and neglected as an old man. I don't even know what that means, I honestly don't. I also don't know why the fact I have Cerebral Palsy is important or how that ties into that like it does, or why that is important now like it clearly is. But like I said I'm getting too old for this. And now I am expected to be living this way for the rest of my life. Fighting endless legal battles with no solutions. Trying somehow find a good, free legal counsel. Only to be ignored most of the times I reach out. And then when they do reply they'll tell me they don't know what I am talking about and that my case doesn't even exist. I don't have time for that, I am sick and tired of that and I don't think it's fair to me or to others my age and in my situation. And plus on top of it all I'll never really know when this is all over with. Even if someone were to reassure me and tell me if it was, even it they were to bend over backwards to prove it to me, I'd have to think they may still be lying. And no one has even had the decency to try that yet.

There's also the issue of what if I suddenly decline one day. Our family physician Dr. Kaniowski was telling me about this around 2007 when my father took a beta blocker. He told me a slip on the ice or a sudden illness can make you suddenly decline. Even when you appear young and health then, for your age. That is where I am now, but because of that talk with him I know how that can suddenly change. And I'd lose everything if that happened. Or at least the life I am accustomed to. I know there's a lot of noticeable symptoms and symptom changes in my feet and hands in even the past couple of weeks. It could be nothing and I do have a tendency to exaggerate things in my mind, and to make mountains out of molehills. But something seems different. And plus all my doctors are clearly lying. And lying about that specifically, my neuropathy and that status. It all seems to have begun when I went to Vascular Centers of America in July 2024. And they told me everything was fine. But when I got back to my other doctors they told me with a grave look that is not correct. Everything is definitely not fine with me and I definitely do have neuropathy.

But like I said, I expect to always live independently, in a nice house. With enough room for all my possessions and my cat, and to always have at least one cat as a pet. And to drive always. Which like I said I now consider the responsibility of the police and all the others who put me thru that for two decades. Wrongfully and putting me in horrible danger like that. I will always bring that up in every new situation along with what they did. And I expect a comfortable existence too. I don't think I am spending that much money. My tastes aren't that expensive. I don't like expensive food and I don't eat at fancy restaurants. Life is just expensive, and I not used to any other standard of living. This is all that expect.