Where Things Stand.

I don't know if I've ever gone into detail about 2011. But my father just died and my then-therapist seemed like he was going to let me in on all the secrets that were kept from me since early childhood. He told me the psychiatrist I saw at age 7 didn't think I was "perfectly normal". She thought I had some disorder, he said. And then my neurologist told me and EEG showed I clearly had some form of Cerebral Palsy due to birth trauma. After that my doctors started slipping back into silent mode. But my neurologist pointed out it should have been clear to someone that I had Cerebral Palsy from the way I walked on the balls of my feet. Another pointed out I obviously have autism from the way I can never look people in the face. And the lady that used to work for us hinted I may have been born with a head deformity, but it wasn't as noticeable now. And now all of these things are denied. Why? If I could get the status I deserve I might get more benefits, or at least more help. And it is vital for my safety, my life, my medical consent, and everything really I always drive and live alone. At a group home I'd lose all my consent and I'd be at the mercy of whatever Wayne County Probate Court and whoever else is responsible for all of this is planning at that moment. That just can't be allowed to happen ever. And I just got from the dentist's. I need a lot of expensive dental work. And they revealed Eric always pays for half of it. Eric can't leave me now and like this. All he has to do is occasionally write a check. I'm curbing my spending significantly already. My life is devastated and destroyed now. This is obviously another form of abuse, but just like I said it's become more real and doing actual damage now. And once again robbing me of any quality or chance of life.