What I Know.

Also I know Eric says he's done with me. And people are telling me it's all my fault. I complained because I am damaged, my life is shortened and things might be getting worse. And really he left at the worst possible time, with all I just said. And with my old age, my uncertain future, not knowing who will pay for all of this now. And being left like that, and also now being for the first time totally alone with absolutely no one. I did often go off on rants here online, as I delt with new things and things were revealed to me. And really even forgot some of what I wrote. But it detailed each day what was revealed and what I was going thru. But I don't know exactly what's going on. I know my doctors are lying, because they are contradicting each other and contradicting what they clearly said sometimes. Now people are telling me I should trust my doctors. No I shouldn't, when they do things like that. And I know Wayne County Probate Court set Eric up as my guardian in 2011. Yet they still lie and deny it. After all the damage that was done to me, after all I went thru, after years of psychological abuse that I know was planned somehow, and after they know now what situation I am in and how I may be getting even worst. From what they, and all the others, did. And yet they still lie, and deny me all access to the legal system, and leave me in a situation that has me damaged and crippled for the rest of my shortened life. Who could be capable of such a thing? Capable of such a thing to anyone? Let alone someone who has done nothing wrong. And Eric is still lying. If he claims he is innocent in all of this, and I was saying false things about him, I will listen to what he has to say. What part of what I said is false? Because he still denies that he is my guardian, and it couldn't be more obvious. He is still lying to me and deceiving me, I know that much. He is part of this legal plan that has left me this way, damaged and disabled. I know that much. The last Christmas at his house he was acting out a routine with his family to let me know he was racked with guilty about something. Guilty about what? And why would he be racked with guilt? I know that's what he was doing, and that is what I was supposed to hear him say thru that. Maybe he should just tell me then what he meant by that, now. And I do know he was part of the car thing. Because he brought it up that way, starting in 2011. For the first time ever. Obviously because he talked to the police about something like that. But I could hear the hesitation in his voice for that plan. Because frankly unlike Dr. Chang, he didn't think he could be my chauffeur then. And strangely that might have been at least partly what ended all of that. He doesn't even like being in Detroit, let alone would he do something like that. And he was responsible for the park thing I know. Obviously because of some communication with the police. He started talking about that around that time too. Even though it was ridiculous, and like with the police it was really none of his business if I want to take the occasional walk in the park when I feel down.

And why was I desperately running off post after post like this? Because I was in a terrible situation, no one was helping and nothing was being done. And I am still in that situation, only now much worse. I don't even know what is going on, I'll never know when this is over. And Eric and the court are still lying to me. They would gain my trust and prove that they and their motives are decent if they just leveled with me and told me the truth. Especially when I have known it for a couple of years now. And if I am wrong in what I have said, they should correct me. And I will gladly share that with others. All I know is that my doctors felt the need to tell me a couple of years ago that Eric was my guardian and that this arrangement existed, at great legal risk to them I could tell, because the diabetes and neuropathy had finally done permanent damage and no one was even allowed to tell me that. Until it was too late. How could this be happening in the United States? And who else is this being done to even now? I think people would agree with me that legal accountability is the only way to correct it and make sure it never happens again.