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Someone giving legal advice online just told me there are no such things as secret legal guardian laws. As I told him, all I know is all my doctors tell me that's what happened to me. How there could be just one law for me or how the laws could be used differently or ignored in my case I don't know, if that's what he meant. Plus frankly he might have been lying. Many people here are clearly lying, and they have been lying in a way that has done harm and permanent injury to me. Those are established facts too. And in all these years no one has filled me in on anymore. Maybe no one ever will.

I also am not sure when this all began. I just know the years 1992 and 2011 seem like the beginning of something. And 2004, when I went to Sinai-Grace hospital. After attempting suicide due to my irrational fear that I would be arrested on made up or trumped up charges. And I explained that when I got there. I actually explained all of it, and they said they believed me. But then they started interrogating me and telling me they were suspicious of me in the psychiatric ward. They couldn't wait till I got home even. And that led to seven years of thoughts of suicide, that almost ended tragically sometimes. Really it was only an understanding lawyer that I was talking to then who told me he didn't think I had anything to worry about. No one else did. But anyways, 1992, 2004 and 2011.

1992 I was hospitalized when I was clearly not having any problems. Just hand dryness that made my hands immovable. Oddly the night after I had anxiety that would happen, February 8, 1992. A dermatologist in Dearborn named Dr. Chapel told me he agreed with me, and said it had something to do with my dermatitis. And then I was forcibly medicated August 1992, leading to some physical changes by late 1994 when I gained weight. Even though I am not overweight by nature. But none of my doctors said anything about that. But everything that happened in 1992 seemed so unlikely. I thought surely it must have been an illusion of some kind even. But it did happen. I was forcibly hospitalized and medicated for wearing plastic gloves that could lead to "infection and death". And I was at commitment proceeding that must have been fake. My court-appointed lawyer said he saw the plastic gloves, they worried him a lot. I covered 2004 above already of course. And something seems to have happened in 2011. My doctors have already told me, or let it slip whatever, that that is when Eric was made my legal guardian. Even though no one told me about that, there's nothing about it on the Wayne County Probate Court website and they and others still strongly deny it. The harm that was done to me is obviously real. I live with its symptoms every day now. But my doctors weren't supposed to tell me about it. Obviously at the orders of Eric or the court. And now I am permanently damaged. And abandoned too because I wasn't supposed to complain. And now like I said, this has become the abuse of an elderly man. I have lived most of my life, and I don't know what my medical future holds. Most of the physical things wrong with me were probably caused by those drugs. Things that I have like heart disease, high blood pressure and even glaucoma really don't run in my family. Someone has to pay for that, someone has to make sure I have all I need for the rest of my life, and someone has to pay for all the damage and special care I will need now that I am an older man with Cerebral Palsy living with this permanent damage. But no one says they will, no one feels responsible, no one cares and my case doesn't exist. It's imaginary I'm told. Even though what they did and what they are capable of clearly isn't. And I keep thinking maybe things will get better. Because they are not improving and actually getting worse. But I am beginning to think even that will never happen.

And BTW like I've said in the past, I don't to repeat myself. I have a weird mind and the way I organize things and remember things is very unusual. People tell me that's more a issue of attention not memory. But I've had that all my life. No one will tell me what's wrong with me. Probably autism and a couple of other things is all I know. Though people tell me there's no reason to change my diagnosis, or handicapped status with Social Security IAE. But I do repeat myself. Like I said sometimes I forget, and sometimes I just want to add in to what I've said. But it's the way I express myself. And for these blog entries, I really have no choice but to continue doing it that way. And plus I have a lot of other things I have deal with now too.