More.

Also there's probably a lot more to what people were doing and planning behind my back that I still don't know. I try not to speculate when I can. But I have reason to believe that people were trying to put me away some place for the longest time. Wherever they could, even though I've never been a danger to myself or others. Like I said, my therapist recently admitted that the police have been observing me for some time, even though I've done nothing wrong and have nothing to hide. I've never even been to jail. But I know my Uncle Al for one thought I should be there. To get the psychiatric treatment I needed he said. It would be better to get it there. And plus he just didn't like me. He thought I was spoiled and had life too good. And I used the word explicitly once and asked to go to 7-11, which made sure to tell me every Sunday he never forgave me for. Everyone in my family knew he was the one who belonged in jail after all the abuse he did to his adopted son. But we weren't talking about him, we were talking about me. One this is certain, despite doing nothing wrong those above people didn't think I was entitled to good things. A car, a nice home, even an occasional walk in the park when I felt down. And they were always trying to take those things away from me when all I was ever trying to do was live my life. Trying to do that ever since I was that little handicapped boy, the little boy too ugly to beg even.

And now I'm harmed and damaged from those medicines. I'm an old man helpless and alone. Eric harmed me thru in the secrecy of it all. And usually the people who harmed you are the ones who legally have make sure that you have all you need to live from then on. For life and with all the damage they did to you. You would think that. But Eric is done with me, after I dared to complain about it all. I may lose my car with loss of my limbs to neuropathy, basically like the police always wanted for the past two decades. And I don't even know what is wrong with me. My doctors still aren't allowed to tell me about the neuropathy. Some kind of gag order obviously. But not only is it much too late to avoid the permanent damage the caused, but it might be getting worse. With symptoms in the past couple of weeks, and in my hands. My neurologist never even told me about me hands, when he finally stopped talking about the subject. And my cases still doesn't exist, and I have to wonder who else they harmed this way or did something like this to. I'm an old man, helpless and alone with an uncertain future and the possibility of losing all if I lose my hands or feet or all four and become a quadriplegic. With most of my life over and much of it destroyed this way and with their psychological abuse. And now I am face too with an unending task and a problem with no solution. I am supposed to call endless lawyers and free legal aid organizations. Most of which will just ignore me. And when they finally do get back with me they'll just say it says online that my case doesn't even exist. Because nothing is being done. Like I said, it seems to me the people who got me here and did this too me bear some legal responsibility to make sure I am well-cared for from now on. Or moral responsibility. But no seems to notice and care. And if things don't stay the same now they seem to only get worse too.