More Thoughts.

So like I said, just like in 2004 my peace of mind is now forever taken from me. And my lifespan is shortened by the damage they did to me. I'm not a young man anymore to be fighting these battles and dealing with these new ordeals. I was hoping I would be able to find some peace now to enjoy the simple life I've wanted since high school that means so much to me. But once again it's being taken from me. And the outcome is horribly catastrophic this time. I've never dealt with anything like this before and I fear the future most of all. The people in my life are already lying to me. There is no money for any of the basic things I need without Eric. He covered all of it, just what I know of. And if I go to a group home I'll be horribly neglected and threatened. I'll be at the mercy of whatever dangerous level of that Olanzapine Wayne County Probate court and the Detroit police want to put me on for God only knows what reason. And the damage now is getting critical, though my doctors and medical personnel are now reassuring me that's just not the case. Which is an obvious disturbing lie. I'm not even sure why they tell it like that. And the Detroit police and others treat me lower than an animal. Lying to me and not bothering to tell me what they're doing and planning July 22nd. Not even bothering to just ask me first. My life is over, my mind is entering the phase of dread and losing all hope. And this time in my life I have no one. No friends, no family, nothing. They all abandoned me. And why? All I asked was to be allowed to live in peace. To be left alone to live the simple existence I have always wanted. And this is my answer. I thought just a short while ago things were going my way. And now I'm devastated and destroyed. More so than ever before in my life. And now at this age with not nearly enough years left to fight this battle.