More On Where Things Stand Now.

There is still a lot of secrecy in my life. I guess there just always was, I just didn't know about it. There also is this idea hurting me is justified. I was recently reading online that hurting a mental patient is never considered legally justified, not even in the most extreme cases. And my case is not in any way extreme. But there does seem to be a lot of misconceptions about me and my case, probably from childhood on. And now people in my life like the mental health authorities and the police are trying to hide and cover up their mistakes. Even though I've been permanently damage, my life is forever shortened and I don't even know what the future holds with my medical care. The fact I have Cerebral Palsy will probably complicate everything. But my doctors are lying to me. I don't even know what's wrong with me. My A1C is obviously not 5.4. I obviously still have neuropathy. In fact it seems to have spread to my hands. And it might even be getting worse now, like within the past couple of weeks. And I wonder too if I didn't get brain damage. I thought I might have in 1984 with that Haldol that I never should have been taking then, and that I only took at a low dose and very briefly. And now I do have issues that do seem more neurological than related to neuropathy. I wouldn't know, because no one tells me. My doctors of course would know, but they won't tell me. And that one doctor seems to hint I may even be suffering from kidney failure now, even though my blood tests supposed reveal nothing wrong.

All of this could have been easily prevented, none of it was ever justified or necessary. Not even remotely or at all. There is damage now that will require special lifelong care. And there is damage now that could be avoided now. And I don't even know what's wrong with me. That is why it is important for patients always to be informed. Informed if half of the phrase informed consent. Because even if you can't consent, you at least have the right to know what is going on. Because like I said, then you exercise the de facto right to not go along with the treatment if you are outpatient. And now things like a car, a home, and things like a car and a front porch that are handicapped accessible and more, are more important than ever before. I know when the police were trying to take away my car, basically for no reason, and while all kinds of horrible crime was going on uninterrupted right in my neighborhood, they said that was not their concern. The harm they were doing, the horrible affect it would have on my life. They just caused the horrible problems in my life and for absolutely no reason. It was in no way their responsibility to solve them then. I totally disagree with that now. I think all the people who did that all these years, all the people who permanently damaged me and shortened my life and all the people who forever changed the outcome of my life even though I did nothing wrong and nothing to them to deserve this, do have the responsibility. The responsibility to make sure I always have everything I need like a car, that I have a nice place to live and a good quality of life too. And now I am going to faced with medical issues I never was going to. I was probably going to live a long, happy, pain-free life. Cancer really doesn't even run in my family, and people on my mother's and father's side all lived many years before they died. Now there's a good chance that I will live a short life and die in a lot of pain. And I will need things like medical consent and the right to make decisions about the end of my life more than ever. But so far as far as I know nothing is being done, no one cares and the problem doesn't even exist.

Like I said, I want all those things done for me. And I want real change too. In Michigan and this country after that.