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And my neighborhood friend warned me I am pushing that guy who I was led to believe is here to help me away. I am pushing everyone away with what I am saying and doing, he told me. But what did I do? And without their help in the neighborhood I'll really be in a horrible situation. Now with no support from Eric, no help, and totally alone for the first time in my life I certainly can't just move now. My life, if I have any quality of life now, will probably be here with my one cat. Unless Eric and his brother Tom are serious, and they are really going to have me secretly hauled away to a group home or some other place. Like I've told people, it's unbelievable how I am being treated. It's almost Dickensian, as I've said. You aren't allowed to do this to the worst criminal, and I am not even that. A place like a group home would be horrible, and I am not even use to a life like that. And once there I'd lose my only way to cry out for help, I'd lose all my legal outlets. And nothing is being done, no one cares, and those two neighbors seem to be leaving me. Because I am pushing them away, he tells me.