More Conclusions.

And like I said, my abuse began when I was that little kid. That little boy too ugly to even beg, I was told. And they really took my childhood at that point. Everything after that day on playground in the 6th grade. Because after that I never thought I'd have a normal life or any kind of life that was happy. But I eventually learned to be happy alone I guess. And now I am told I am living beyond my means. I don't know what they are talking about because I don't like expensive fashions or the latest jewelry. And anyone who has access to my account knows I am down to buying expired food on top of that. Life is expensive. And if there is some view that I belong to a group that wouldn't mind that existence. That thinks taking the bus is fun, or even an option. That a group home is an option. That any situation of confinement or where I have my life controlled by other people. Especially now that I am damaged. As I keep saying, the symptoms in my hands and feet are getting worse or at least changing. It's too late to stop taking those meds. Because they knew that I'd probably stop 15-20 years ago when the neuropathy and other damage from high sugar levels began. I wasn't a danger to myself or others and they knew if I'd stop there was little they could do about it. So they lied about it all. And here I am now in this state because of that. And as I've said, to repeat a group home is not an option. I refuse that option and I better not be taken there by force. While the plans are made behind my back. Like they did July 22. I want all my medical consent restored and the secrecy to end. And by secrecy to end I mean the lie that I have all medical consent when I don't. I've been too compliant for too long, and this is where it has gotten me. And that becomes an issue they will lose what little compliance I have left now as I deal with them. They'll lose all of it. And then they'll have to justify it that way.

But the law is clear who has to pay for all this. When someone secretly harms you. When they damage you and lie about it all along until it's too late. When they violate your rights and treat you like you have no rights and little status in their eyes. Then they have to pay for it. And that is what I expect now. After a lifetime of abuse, after being damaged and possibly crippled some day by all of that, after being treated like a person with no rights, all while they lied to me and the public about it. They will pay for it, and I will see to that. If I have to spend the rest of my life doing that. Living independently in my own home with my cat always. And always driving like I said, that one point I will always bring up. Along with what the police and doctors did to me with that. Did to me, suddenly starting around 2005 for no reason I know of. But my therapist seems to agree it was ridiculous. The fact I almost got attacked that way shopping and living my life that way and the fact it took that guard getting killed isn't just ridiculous, it's frightening. And it seems to have been a form of abuse too, I can tell. I'll have to look into that too. But there's probably a record of all that, and so I will make it always part of my case and part of my argument of what was done to me for years. And like I said, if the police have some kind of immunity or other reason why they could get away with all of this. If this ever is revealed and the secrecy ended. Then at least I know all those other mentioned people don't. So then they should pay for it.