Conclusions.

And like I explained early on, the fact I was driven to suicide might be important here. I don't know though, and I don't know how I'd know. It's all a secret. I'm not even allowed to know why they did the things they did to me and why they continue to do that. A criminal they'd have to tell, but I am lower in their eyes than even that person. But like I said, I was driven to suicide always. Every time I ever considered it, right from the start. It was always the abuse that I received that led to that and fact I was led to believe there was no solution to the problem and no hope for any kind of life. And I never wanted to die, I always wanted to live. But they would never let me, and their abuse never ended or let up for a moment. And if that is an issue or even becomes an issue again, I told you. That threat would be eliminated if I saw some real justice in my life, if I saw them publicly take responsibility for what they did, that they are capable of such things and continue to do it. Then, I would have no reason so see that is the only solution. But they haven't done that, and they continue to do that, and they show even more so what kind of people they are. That they care so little, that they won't reform their behavior when they do that and when they are exposed and that they continue to do and probably will never stop. But I am not going to let what happened in 2004 at Sinai-Grace hospital to happen again, this time I will always speak up and tell everyone what they did to me. Accurately, with detail and so there is a record this time. I don't ever want to end inpatient again, not with the kind of help they have always given me, like in 2004. And if I do I won't hesitate to tell everyone what they did that time and how it led to desperation again. When all I want and all I ever wanted is to live my life and live my old age in peace, but they just won't let me.