Conclusions.

Like I think I alluded to before, no one tells me anything ever. And that causes serious problems. For me, and for others I think. Like I said, I think the car issue problems was resolved by 2014 when the guard was killed at my drug store. It was hard for me to know because not only did no one tell me anything, but the abuse using that threat continued. Plus it's hard to say sometimes. Some people were saying don't worry, we'd never do something like that to you. Just like they have been since 2004 or 5 when that all seems to have begun. And they'd say that they were thinking of it. Or just hint or tease me about it. It's hard to say and it's hard to tell which people were doing what. And like I said, my therapist told me the police were doing that. As part of some ill-conceived plan he told me, that would have endangered my life. And then in 2024 I was led to believe the best way to deal with the horrible effects of that Olanzapine was to just play along, people told me. One doctor said maybe take the medicine a week before any drug test. But what kind of a plan is that? I see many doctors. Many more due to the problems it caused. At least one a month. Sometime three a month, like this month. If I kept taking it on and off like that I would still be taking it most of the time. And I can't take that stuff ever again. It damages me in even the smallest dose, a doctor recently told me. And I don't think taking a powerful medicine like that on and off is such a good idea. I did things like that when I was a young man. But I am much older now. We are reaching my elderly years. And plans have to be made along those lines. All the issues I will deal with age. All the medical problems I now face with age. All the living arrangements. I refuse a group home ever, but an old age home might be a real possibility. I may have no choice. And what I do when they are poisoning me with that drug in that place, now against my will and in a place where they control my life more in other ways too. I have to maintain my independence always. But it will be hard to do that after all the damage they've done to me and all they've taken from me this way.

And now no one is telling me what is going on here either. Or actually they are telling me. They are teasing me still telling me my case doesn't exist, in other words still nothing is being done. In fact it's getting worst. All I am trying to do is what I've always done, live my life while they abuse and do these things to me. And deal with that into my old age now. Helpless and alone, and told it is somehow all my fault.