Your Biggest Mind Fuck?

My dad was my biggest mind fuck. I just never understood how he could co-create me and then leave me like I was nothing. Fuck it, smoke a blunt.

 

Interesting

 

mine was drugs, I almost got really addicted to oxy's (pain pills) I went nuts looking for them one day, freaking out cuz I couldn't find any, I looked at myself in the mirror and I didn't recognize myself, it scared the shit out of me....

 

the brainwash of our everyday lives and what people call "reality"

 

My fall from Catholicism and ultimately all religion was mind-numbingly painful. Being on the "other side" now is liberating.

 

parents. i just never understood how someone could be so friendly (well, at least in my dads case. my mom is ALWAYS a vindictave bitch to everyone) and then behind closed doors, so abusive. and i loved them so much. i just wanted to feel loved, too. oh well. fuck abusive emotionally/mentally scarring pasts. i probably deserved it anyways.

 

I chose school, cause I was the happiest little sheltered geek until I hit middle school and got an unhealthy dose of reality. I say unhealthy cause I never really recovered from it as stupid as it may sound. I expect the worst and most shallow from people now. Even from the people that love me most. Something that's all too often reinforced, especially in strangers. Most people I encounter seem very one-dimensional so I neevr get to know anyone cause I never like what I see......

 

I chose work...the idea that so many of us have to trot off to stupid jobs that we don't like, or that don't serve the purpose of helping us grow as human beings, just to survive. So many folks live their lives engaged in activities that don't do much of anything just to pay the bills, consume, whatever. I'd love to conclusively figure that one out so that I can do the work I'd love to do w/out having to bow down to the almighty dollar...

 

My heads been screwed with by a few too many things....gotta think longer on that one

 

School and church, I used to question things a lot when I was a kid, especially in sunday school.

 

ok I think everything listed there, has played a part in playing with my mind & other!!!

 

The biggest mind f***: Umbrellas that can't withstand the wind.

 

id say its a tie between church nad parents for me

 

the relation between school-government-parents-work for me, cuz they're all connected in evil ways.

 

Death........sent me mind places that i couldn't even previously imagine.....

 

Government -- It's filled with corruption and competition. Everything's about power and votes when it should be about issues at hand and representing the people. Politics tends to bring out the worst in people.

 

Marriage by far

 

currious - what do you mean? like, have you had a near death experiance? or did you think really hard, to the point of clarity - say a trip or something, on it once?

 

many things also, a little of everything really.....mostly pregnancy and motherhood.