Its not your handwriting that's bad, it's your spelling and grammar. I can barely understand what you're trying to make is, if one exists.....
Maybe it means that we're all being altered by the wanting or expectation of things that we can only dream about....like an adenaline rush or somethin. Hell, I dunno.
Tell me something I don't know about myself. I find your overly-expressed immaturity sad and annoying.....buh-bye.
good god, that has got to be one of the best smilies i've ever seen... so much emotion in such a little picture... wow!