I'm starting to think like I haven't before. I used to want to never be at home but I want to be there . Not only because I miss my family but because I worry about them . I used to want to be a pilot really want to be a pilot too . I'm in the best school for my major (Aeronuatical Science) but completely messed that up for myself . It doesn't seem to bother me though. And I want to help people and experience the arts more . This really isn't like me . I have voluntered and have played intruments but all I have ever wanted to do is fly planes . Now I just don't . I don't really feel conected to my best friend anymore ethir and I've known her sence her existence . I know I won't see her again (I'm in college and shes moving to England and I our families into an awkward situation) but it doesn't bother me to much . Even though I've cared about her like shes a sister . I'm also attracted to her but (shes an ex , im not into digging sisters if thats what your thinking) I have no true desire to hookup with girls anymore . I don't even like it. Theres nothing ever behind it and I can't seem to relate any sort of connnection to anyone that way. I just want to be alone in the middle of a forest somewhere with just a phone maybe to keep me company . I really want to escape society .I've always wanted it . I feel most comfortable by myself . I have no desire to be incredibly wealthy or well like I just want to be happy. I can't say that I'm not happy ethir . Thats my confession .
No I underdstand how you feel! I'm kinda goin through it myself as well. I guess you could say that were just humans and it's normal.....And with the dating stuff....do you feel like you don't want to date even you want someone to be there?
Yea I don't want to date . With someone being there I think that would be alright but I think i could go with out that too.
Nope!, not at all, not alone, and this reads word for word how I've been feeling for a few years, I don't care for, or want to entertain anyone, I find my self with my guitar and surf board down at the beach, and still avoiding others on the beach, and waiting for sets, it's like I don't want to hear any bad news, I have nothing really to tell anyone else, just Blaaa..... I even spend more time in a library, just looking thru books, and again keeping to my self, what's in the air? but maybe it's not a bad thing. Peace, I ~
i know exactly how you guys feel--but lately ive been feeling a little lonely though and it would be nice to have someone there who understands just to share moments with you know? i pretty much just dropped all my friends but it doesnt bother me because it was my choice. i just couldnt relate to them anymore. i dont even want a boyfriend. i just want someone whos on the same level as me if you know what i mean.anyway, keep on keepin on you guys ~~peace~out~~~
I agree completely. the world is based on money and i see no need to have massive amounts. I told my teacher about the career i wanted and she said that it was dumb because i wouldnt make any money, then all the kids were like and your kids will get made fun of because they are poor. What kind of world are these people growing up in where to be cool you have to be rich.
