Thank you very much for your responses, I realize how the negativity is completely anti-progressive for me at this point, so thank you for pointing that out. I'm trying to have a bit of a new hopeful attitude, maybe clear my mind a bit. I need to work out some more of the details, but wild-flowers re-kindled a younger dream of mine to travel. I think I may try to travel as far as my car's engine will go and see where I end up, who I meet, what i end up doing... whatever... I must seem bi-polar, but idk why i've been so positive today, hopefully it will last. thanks again.
Don't despair even though you are in a difficult situation right now. Don't give up either or lose hope. I have worked in many crap jobs for many years just to survive and I can say yes it has been worth it. You do get good jobs too, you just have to keep trying. Keep trying your so called friends for help even if you have to use them until you get back on your feet. I have learn't you have to look after number one in this world YOU. Stick with it, think positive, strive to be your best and it will turn around. Don't think of your current circumstances it is only temporary and will hold you back, think where you want to go. SET GOALS you must have them, small to begin with and complete them, then set larger ones and continue completing them.
You know, right now you feel like shit, you feel unloved, you're hungry and you're asking yourself......why fucking bother anymore because nothing gets better. Take that car of yours and drive to a new city. This is going to be a great story someday, they say suffering teaches us to be compassionate. So if anything you're going to be a very old compassionate man one day. Have an adventure, leave, start new.
If you have never been to college perhaps that is something to look into. A lot of the time if you are out of work you can get money from the state to go to college. Also, it sounds like you are quite judgmental...you might want to stop that any maybe more people will come into your life.
Thank you very much for your responses, I realize how the negativity is completely anti-progressive for me at this point, so thank you for pointing that out. I'm trying to have a bit of a new hopeful attitude, maybe clear my mind a bit. I need to work out some more of the details, but wild-flowers re-kindled a younger dream of mine to travel. I think I may try to travel as far as my car's engine will go and see where I end up, who I meet, what i end up doing... whatever... I must seem bi-polar, but idk why i've been so positive today, hopefully it will last. thanks again.
